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I feel I have become a kid through following J’s commandments. The Bible promises this.

I w watching Mermaid Magic; and I w totally enjoying it like crazy. There w so much emotion, I felt so much. Tbh I’ve never watched something that made me feel that, my whole life.

I’ve been following J’s commandments for four years now. I feel that they have worked.

Obviously there is no end to following them for me, I feel.. they have worked w has given me the faith to follow them for as long as I need to, I feel.

I feel there is persecution. This is my challenge atm, trying to deal w it. I feel that the people are putting a bummer on me a lot. To solve this I am following J’s commandments relative to persecution. I guess Ima find out whether that w work.

I hope so.

I want to move to London when I have made enough money w my business, when the cash is flowing in.

This is something that I have to put a pin in as I have a flat inspection and need to tidy the place up. Ik it w be a lot of work.

The feels to move out are super strong. There w this girl and boy who looked at me. She said he’s moving. He said, you know.

These were my feelings at the time. I felt like I had been pushed out of this town. I w mourning this as I w near the train station, it hit me hard.

I feel I have lost everything bc of following J’s commandments tho gained myself in the process.

I w rather have myself than anything or anyone. Like I said, watching Mermaid Magic just felt so good. Ik that I w feeling all my feelings. I feel shocked by this. Idek that someone my age c be like this.

I have lost my feeling all my life, I feel to ASPD abuse. This seems like my reward for the life that I have not had.

I feel I have had failure to launch all my life. I have been felt kinda dead inside. Just hoping that one day I w feel more and now I do.

Idk what made me begin following J’s commandments. I just felt it w the right thing to do, w did I have to lose.

I’m happy for the choice that I have made.

I tend to just travel around my town. It gets me out.

My scooter got a puncture so I need to repair it.

Idk whether the squatters are still here, I think so. I feel threatened and don’t believe they should be here.

I’m rly hoping for a new life, one that feels so much better. Ik that I deserve to help myself.

This is a part of secure attachement. It is the feeling that people w help me w my needs and also that I am able to change my life for the better.

I am very positive about things. I have been working for a long time and feel that things should work out. Time w tell.

I used to say to people that I w nearly there. This w always untrue. I’m done w that.

I’m going to London on Saturday, hopefully. I feel this helps me visualise the life I want. I feel it is my superpower, and what is giving me the energy to be able to do this.

I want this super bad.

To Goals

Kirsty