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I have gotten non losty. I am no longer delusional.

I had this deam where someone w after me; and drugs w involved.

I w so scared; what if I fall prey to this; bc of the stress.

This didn’t happen tho; at all.

It w here for two days and now it is gone.

I nearly crashed my scooter bc of this hot girl.

Everyone w driving crazy. I c feel this. For some reason I felt like I w have an accident. Ik that if I w careful this w actually make this happen.

This van nearly hit me. Then I noticed that everyone w driving like a crazy idiot.

I had literally predicted this w happen before it did.

I have noticed that on some days, people are driving crazy, even the pedestrians. This kid told me to be careful. I took his advice and boy w he right.

This made me wonder if I w right about my blog and the other thing. Am I seeing things before they happen. In this case, yes I did.

I w super stressing out. The squatters I w so scared. Then I watched the Baby Sitters Club and I w super chill. Yk what if this is reality, Id wanna stress, Idec.

I am so grateful for that program for chilling me the hell out. The vibe w just so Idc what reality is.

I touched on before that my reality is worth fighting for. When I feel that Ima just let go of what if’s. I just don’t c w happens. It’s not worth losing my reality over something. Why in the world w I wanna lose it.

When I am feeling real feeling Ima just not let go of it. It’s so powerful, feeling; it just makes me like Idc.

I am so grateful for J for healing me to this point. I also k that I have to keep following his commandments so that I don’t lose the precious reality that I have.

I have lived all my life, from eighteen feeling nothing; Id want to ever feel like that again. Ik why I wasn’t okay w it. Now I feel I see why the absence of feeling w such a problem.

I feel this energy that is supe dope. It sears through me, like some kinda force.

I used to feel bad every time I w around kids. All I c feel w the absence of feeling. I remember the bus w one place to expect this.

I w highly recommend following J’s commandments. I am toying w having a webpage that just has all that he said in the Bible listed so that peope a just see right out the get what he is asking people to do so that they have life.

I used to be conditioned to think that I had ASPD. Now Ik that this is not true. I’m shocked that I am in reality; to the core. It takes some getting used to.

And it’s super weird. Like it makes me feel like I just don’t wanna be manipulated. I see feel that people are not in reality. How in the world they a tell me what to do. I just feel that they want to do this bc they are not in reality.

People tend to gaslight those who are functioning fully out of the need to cover up the fact that they are not. I feel real, some sh just seems like a joke.

This is the power of feeling. I have never been here before, I feel. I w abused as a child, so I never felt like the strength of boundaries that come from how strong I feel my feelings. It’s such a powerful force.

To Feeling And How It Makes Me Not Care What Reality Is

Kirsty