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I spoke to so many people about the squatters, and got so much advice. They got violent and made threats.

One thing Ik about heroin addicts is that I feel they w take advantage of anyone in anyway they can. I feel anything they get, w I feel w be a mistake, I feel they w use to take more.

My belief of antipsychotics is that they are literally the most addictive drug out there and relapses tend to happen bc when coming off them, there needs to be like something strong to replace them for a while.

I feel people tend to do hard drugs, w w make the symptoms worse and cause a relapse.

I w in the middle of town, telling the whole world w w going on. I w done hiding who I w as Ik that w only give them power.

I feel that my area manager w get rid of them in a heartbeat. He w even let me not clean my kitchen tops.

Tbh I’m angry. I feel they lost everything by being evil. I feel that them staying here is just another attempt to steal. I have to listen to hate all the time against the trans girl who helped them. Tbh this makes me wanna puke.

They are so sick that they w saying, rob her, she needs it.

I love the persecution. Idek why. I have to f around feeling like a star, it is w it is. It allows me to feel that joy.

This woman said to me, you have it, you do. I said to her Ik. I get called beautiful and gorgeous. All Ima say is cheers.

This w a hard situation to navigate as I didn’t have secure attachment. I w scared to tell on how I w suffering. Now I haven’t. It’s nice that I have grown on the process and become the person I always wanted to be, healthy.

The hutspa.

This has been quite a journey for me.

The business is close. I just have to learn how to work the email marketing software. This has been quite a challenge. I hate it w the help pages are trying to fill my head w all this dorky sh that I don’t want anywhere near me.

This is rly all that is standing in my way. I feel this town is so toxic and that is why all this sh is happening.

This guy said that he w moving to London, I said me too.

The persecution is just too bad. I feel no one has self esteem. I feel I am treated like a star just bc I have it. The thing about London is that they dek who the hell I am; I am no one.

I am so grateful for J’s commandments and it is so trippy how they have worked.

The persecution is one thing that I didn’t bet on. It is super bad. Bc so many people have npd, I feel they are all trying to suck out my self esteem. I feel this is super sadistic. Why the hell must I be left dry w they are the ones lacking it.

They have neglected themselves, why can’t they just leave me alone, and respect someone who has elevated theirs. To feel hurt for literally bettering myself is something that causes me pain, as it w in anyone w has empathy.

What is the point in having empathy w it is dashed every time someone unhealthy comes along. This contunes to drive me mad. Just leave me the f alone, you evil people.

I wish the bible said that they w come for me literally for following J’s commandments and making myself healthy. It felt like f’ery McCluckery that they were trying to destroy me for this. That is why I hate them. It touches on this tho I w wholly unprepared for how bad it w be.

I feel that my employer gaslighting my needs to be sexually safe, w extremely harmful to me, psychologically. I had secure attachement and then I lost it. This w horrendous.

That is the hallmark of evil people, telling people they are wrong for experiencing something.

This w something that for the longest time I couldn’t understand, w w w w it, or even how to tell when someeone w doing it.

Yep mate, they are just evil. They don’t want you to have the awareness of bad behaviour so they are trying to bend your reality and take that awareness of off you mate. So evil.

I w never forget how unsafe I felt; like I w gonna get a bitchin.

To Feeling Safe

Kirsty