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I have felt like I w being verbally abused by like every single person w w there, everywhere.

I w bringing this to them. I felt like they were lying.

I have come to be able to handle w I felt w absolute outright verbal abuse. This is rly good.

I don’t want to experience this anymore. Tho this may happen.

It used to be super hard. I used to get anxiety attacks sometimes with peoples’ behaviour.

I felt they w be weird when they saw me coming; I w cross the street.

I find myself in a choice.

I don’t want to take. I feel that it is a slippery slope. I feel I have seen where this leads.

I have told a lot of people a lot of things.

I feel I have done some good.

I want to deal with my life in the right way. I want what’s best for me. I have to decide who I am.

Ik who I don’t want to be

That’s all rly that I have, is that who I don’t want to be. It’s not rly a hard choice.

I also have who I love being. Ngl I love telling people things that Idk, I seem to Idk, it’s about how they feel when I tell them things.

Idk if I want to stop telling them things, not rly. It’s about what they want tho.

I want to watch Netflix. I haven’t done this in a while.

I suppose I have to accept who people are, kinda. Like own that they are who they are, tho; keep shaping them I guess, Idk; sounds kinda Idk. Do I have the right. It seems I do; it seems like it does some good.

It seems to be leading somewhere where, Idk if I want to go.

You see I am who I am too. I have the right to shape my own life and choose. It sure seems like other people do.

I see this heading in a direction that will just Idk; I see a lot of people seeing me, tho Ik who they are and I just feel that that w not be good for me.

Ik who they are, and I just don’t want to do that.

I just don’t want to do anything that changes the life that I have. My life is good rn. Kinda.

I just want people to leave me alone. I want to keep what I have. That is my main goal, to keep everything that I have.

I want to shape myself in a way that means that people don’t do anything to me that I don’t want them to do.

I’m scared that this w mean that I feel hurt. I feel I’m just protecting myself from feeling hurt from what people are saying.

I also want to be respected and I feel that people don’t feel like respecting the law when I am around.

This is the way that I have to accept that that’s who they are. I can’t change this. I can only Idk, maybe do a little there.

I see that people want to keep what they have. I imagine people doing horrendous things to keep what they have.

I don’t want to worry.

I’m shocked at who people are. Tho now Ik this.

I just wanted to k what to do. Tho it w my choice. I had to look at things, and choose.

To Choice

Kirsty