Hey

Ik that what happened to day w happen anywhere. It warns in the Bible of this.

It says let no one go down to get something from the house, and to flee into the country.

This is w I intend to do. I nearly did it today.

I feel that the city is an evil place, and that is why it says this.

tho I have dealt by just being polite and not allowing myself to become… Idk if provoked is the right word. People w use others emotions against them psychologists say.

I’m on my way. I w have a profit soon; and as soon as that is realised I’m booking the f out of this place; merely bc it is a city and they are all evil.

My self esteem w be so much better.

Idk why cities are evil, and the country is okay, even super good, tho I one hundo believe this to be true.

I have found that the more I cultivate rightousness w|i myself the more I have found the city an unpalatable place to be.

I think I have survived this thus far… By just being polite and kind to everyone. Tho I feel that the place is just so toxic that it just doesn’t deserve me if Ima be real about it.

It’s been harder and harder to be here. People just stepping their sh up w every increase in self esteem that I experienced.

I want to stay tho. Ik that it is a lovely place. I remember from when I w young, w is a miracle in itself.

I remember the feels of going to the shop at the end of my road, and various other places and how just full of the nicest vibes it w.

I need to be balanced tho. I need to ask myself if rly it is too toxic here. Ik that J’s commandment is to go, and i probably should, I just want to weigh both sides.

To Change

Kirsty