Hey

I got told that that person who is being pushy to try to get to know me, is the one to be scared of.

This helps so much. I need to be able to discern between someone who is safe and someone w is not; and now I can.

Tho I must take them for coffee just to make sure.

I feel good. I feel that Christmas energy approaching. I feel happy.

I w laying yesterday; and I felt so good like it w the middle of summer. The sun w coming in the window lighting up the whole room.

I love just laying there and thinking.

I realised that I had been judging this town. That I kinda hated it bc I wasn’t in reality.

I w on the bus w two girls. I gave one of them a vape. A lady on the bus got upset and I saw her walking to the escalator, and boy w she pi.

That w me exactly. If you c bottle her energy in that moment and compare that to me when I used to get upset bc of peoples’ behaviour on the bus, they w be verbatim the same.

I hated this town like someone w w get triggered every time they went out. I have to say that I love this town, I do. Tho I still hate it a bit bc there are some things that Ima not handle.

I am budgeting super well when it comes to shopping. One day I only bought a carton of milk and an onion, that w all I needed.

This has allowed me to save some money. I feel like I’m getting my head above water, and I should have that iPad mini that I so badly want.

I need it for the business, so that Ima do all my online sh.

I’ve tried umpteen devices and computers and found that all budget ones don’t function properly. I need a brand new device; and that w be one.

Sitting at home watching youtube on my brand new device, happy as a squirrel w a nut, sleeping like a baby.

I just remembered, I had a dream I w stoned.

I am coping well w not having barely an social connection at all. I speak to the Samaritans when I get super scared; that is the key.

Ima get through this and then I w make friends. I have a lot of self esteem and can’t just fw anyone, as they w bring me down and I w be able to f the business.

Oh, I just rememberd. I w remember people saying go whoosh. And I w think that they are telling me to f. I w find it super abusive as I k I don’t need to.

Then I realised; I’ve already gone whoosh. Look at the business, look at how I am nailing it, look at my self esteem and the fact that everyone treats me like royalty.

I’ve already gone whoosh. These are the things that someone gets in their life when they go whoosh, this is the purpose of going whoosh, to nail life; I have.

To Going Whoosh

Kirsty