Hey

I don’t want to have sex

The crux is that this vision thing is that everyone is delusional.

It’s common knowledge that sex can cause psychosis.

Sanity is something that is rly important to me. It just seems like a slippery slope into not being aware of my surroundings.

That’s what bothers me, the lack of control; Idk where it w lead and how crazy I w get.

I value my sanity. I don’t want to lose it. I’m scared.

I’d rather carry on seeing everyone as crazy than be one of them. I’d rather be on the right side of reality.

Yes, it w be nice to try.

There’s also the perviness as well. I’m seriously unpervy. Porn I just never fw it, I don’t feel attracted to watching it at all, it’s just disgusting as far as I am concerned.

If Ima get off I’d rather get off w|o it.

I feel that the perviness is something that a person get sucked into.

Like the more a person f, the more pervy they get and the more they want to f.

I don’t want to be pervy. I feel there w be this lack of control that w make me that way.

I’d rather be dead than be pervy. I just don’t want it at all.

It feel extremely dangerous to me, like playing w fire.

I want to k what it feels like. Tho I’m scared that any physical contact whatsoever w lead to more and more perviness. Then I get sucked into lust and end up fully delusional, always talking about vision, believing that I am psychic. Basically I w have lost it.

To Keeping My Sanity

Kirsty