Hey

I managed to get into my headphones. They sound great. I also tidied up my place a little bit.

I rly need to make sure that I get this done.

I am having feelings like Ima die, and it’s bc of the mess in here.

And that’s also why I feel I had my relapse is bc of how messy it got in here bc of how depressed the whole work situation.

Everyone is evil. And sometimes that means that they do a number on me.

The way people look down on people is evil. And they w feel justified doing anything no matter how horrendous to someone based on some kind of perceived lack of social value.

This perpertually keeps people down who are more righteous than those who destroy them.

They can’t get out of this trap and never have a life; their whole life gone, they get old and they have never had one and never had respect.

Their lack of self esteem being proof of their lack of worth, where that w given to them by people treating them like they were less than; the same people assigning them less value bc of it.

It’s basically we say you have no value therefore it’s true, horrid; and I hope G punishes them severely.

I’m struggling to find volunary work; tho rly I must concentrate of tidying my place as it is giving me the feelings that Ima die.

The business is the same. Bc it’s over Christmas I’m having no luck.

Ik that G sees me when I suffer. I feel that my boss w be tortured in hell for what she has done. She could have killed me; it’s not possible to survive w no social connections. She took them all when she fired me; merely for not coming in bc, I’m sorry, I w having a relapse; bc you got so angry at me for three days that I felt I w in danger and was done, all over the fact that I merely said how I felt.

I sit here and talk and talk and talk about evil people; tho G hears and he punishes, Ik this to be true.

If you are suffering, K that G hears your cries. Nothing changes bc people w always be evil and always keep you down.

Tho you can change yourself so that they can have less control of you when it comes to keeping you down. You can follow G’s commandments.

Then w G does is he just rewards you every time they pull that sh. Notice how your energy gets higher every time, and you see them more for the people who feed of being able to call you less than.

It’s literally so important tho them to look down on you.

That’s how I feel it got at work, where they were actually hell bent on looking down on me and fired me for that reason.

Their ego just couldn’t allow me to be right not even once, and I only said how I felt, I never called them out on anything.

I love G so much. I sit here w a broken leg and torn flesh on my thigh; and Ik that I will get into heaven, bc of what they have done to me and they w be sent down to hell for breaking my innocent body like this.

People who are righteous rly do suffer. This is bc evil people see them as highly prized for narcissistic supply.

Akin to raping an angel, basically, for their power. And they actually do try and do that, bc they tried to do that to me.

Don’t Sleep With Dogs

Kirsty