Hey

I want the gold Apple Watch; w is w bc I don’t even want the iPhone 16 Pro Max.

I’ve been looking at these bc soon I w have money coming in from the business.

I nearly cried tho. I had so much grief setting up two factor authentication for my Awin account. I screamed f o at the top of my lungs; I’d had enough.

I’ve got to try it again w the other authentication app, and then I get to ask them to take it off. I’m pretty upset that I’ve got to get into that state again.

I don’t like a culture of computer geeks, where it’s expected to allow computers to rip me open.

There should be empathy built into the software tho they have none so there isn’t.

Oh well. I chose this life. I chose to get ripped open every time I tried to operate a piece of business software.

It is Sunday; my day for not doing any work. Sure as hell not gonna do any w the how Ima feel if I do.

I normally have two sabbaths, tho this escaped me this week, I just forgot to, and rly, it’s bc I have been taking it easy all week.

Looking at the apple watch made me feel rly good; like I’m happy bc I have a vocation.

I deserve nice things; I do. I have ripped myself open so many times in the last year, it’s crazy, ruined so many of my day, actually most of them.

I w on a medication that meant I w rip if I went anywhere near business software; and in the morning it w mean that my whole day w Gerfunkt

It’s nice to k that it wasn’t all for nothing.

I have been sick the whole time from schizophrenia. I w able to do a little work at the same time.

Now I w be able to support myself, and feel like a star.

I have wanted a vocation all my life. I used to want to do home improvements. I come from a wealthy family.

I had the luxury of expecting to find something that made me good money. I w bright, due to having a stable home.

It w toxic af tho there never was any arguing, w allowed me to feel realaxed; even tho being abused like f emotionally.

It took like thirty four years for me me to realise the vibe I had back then. Tho I am here now.

Here’s To J’s Commandments

Kirsty