Hey

This is it for me.

I validate, I’m shaking as I write this, that everyone in this town is a pathological narcissist, I feel.

I can’t escape myself validating how I feel; and that I must move out of here; go to London, just anywhere but here.

I w looking round at all the people when I w out; and I feel it’s true; every single one of them.

Like I’ve been saying for a long time, it must be the culture here; it is the only way to explain that everyone is a pathological narcissist, I feel.

They all look at me like I’m an as hole, I feel.  And this used to trigger me like f.  Like I w have days when I felt this way; and I w feel that bc I w validating my feelings about them and feeling kinda cross with them; I felt like they w all start w me like giving me funny looks, looking at me like I w trash.

Like it’s like anyone who thinks this town is bad is like worthless; that’s what it is like they are feeling, and how I am getting looked at, I feel, when I am cross with living here.

I tried for so long to push down the feelings that I didn’t like it here, bc of the looks I felt I w get when I w in that mood, that they looked at me in a devaluing way for seeing them for who they are.

Like, every person I w go past, when I w in this mood, I felt looked at me this way.

And so many times I w get home upset from being triggered at their glares and stares at me.  This is all real, that they were glaring and staring at me, for being cross with the place and fed up with it; and at the same time having super high self esteem w also drew them to glare at me.

This kid literally tried to frighten me when I w on my scooter; so it’s obvious that they can tell that I am wary of them, that being the reason that he did it, bc I w wary of everyone.

They can all tell; and the way they look at me drives me into a trigger; they look at me like I’m worthless, I feel.

I feel this is the number one reason that this places is labelled by so many surveys as the worst place to live in the UK, aside from the fact I feel that every single person is a pathological narcissist.

It’s rly anyone who has a problem with the place, anyone who has an issue with the way people are looking at them.  I feel they w all sense this mood and just look at that person like they are utter sh.

This is my story.  It’s not healthy for me to live in a town where every single person is a pathological narcissist, I feel.  It’s extremely emotionally unhealthy.

I’m scared for my sanity.  I don’t want to become one of them, like them, a pathological narcissist too.  I frightened for my right to feel empathy, and be a fully functioning human being.  I’m scared that if I stay here it’s likely that they w take that off of me, my humanity.

The last thing I want to be is someone who bullies people who have empathy; G I’m scared.

To Validating Feelings, And Getting The Hell Out

Kirsty