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I didn’t check the business yesterday to see if I had been accepted for that offer; I had been out playing pétanque all day.

It w so lovely being at Notcutts.  There were all the nice things that people buy for their gardens.

I got to thinking how Ima be able to afford all these things when the business is making money.

It is for this reason that I love pétanque, and the nice people who I fw there.  I am going again on Saturday

I feel I have been eating too much; tho it is the only way to keep warm as I feel I w get hyperthermia w~o.  I get home and don’t warm up for hours.

My little rug came through the Post yesterday or the day before.  It means that if my iPhone slips off my sofa it won’t crash onto the floor.

I’m taking my Calcium AlphaKetoGlutarate that I got through the post, like good girl.

It made me look so much younger so I want to do it again; tho it may have been the fisetin I’ve been taking that did that.

It kills zombie cells w could be the thing that w making me look haggard.

There are so many things I can’t talk about; bc I just get too upset.  I can’t even say what they are, tho there are many.

I guess I’ve been abused pretty badly if it stops me from speaking sometimes; quite often rly.

I had chips at Fries.  It w nice; they had lots of young people and the vibe w on point, talking about wanting to be trans and stuff and beefing at men, and this seemed to be a boy saying it.  I love that sh so hard.

He w super dope, and I w like, w why isn’t everyone super dope.  I think he’s trans.  W is super sad if the only super dope people are trans then Ima be super lonely.

I like mega attractive people too, just like they w fw me hard, and be super dope too.  Some of them have this energy that I rly wanna fw.

It’s hard bc Idk whether Feadows w be flooded.  So I risk having to get a taxi every time I go through there.

The weather rly pi me off; bc I went online to find out if it rained last night and it w the one thing that wasn’t available, w~o ripping myself up trying to figure it out.

I had coke zero and chips.  I swear he said eat it; like Idk whether he w talking about me.  He w right tho.

They are all nice people at pétanque.  The guy who runs it w his wife w saying about narcissistic people and how it w funny, so w his wife.

I love that so much bc it validates that I feel I have come from an abusive situation.  Honestly it does me so much good to hear stuff like that.

It’s just being around human people to learn their shashawny ways; to learn that I am not like evil or something like that.

I suppose the function of empathy is to be able to spot people who are frickacha yk.

So my week is rly filled up w stuff now.  I have about ten hours going on w w the same as my voluntary job.

I also have people to speak to to help me find more, w is super dope.

It feels so amazing to have people in my life again.

Above w I’m saying is like professionals who deal w that kind of thing.

I’ve got lots to do today I’m super busy.  I’ve been trying every day to get into one of my accounts.  I suppose I should chill as I don’t have to do it all in one day.

It’s just hard for me l feel like someone is snapping their fingers at me all the time even tho there is no one there.  I feel strong sense of shame for not getting it done yet.

To Friends

Kirsty