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I have been having all these memories coming back; like being at the old bicycle shop.

My reality is fixing itself.

I have been taking Curcumin for three years now.

I feel it only proliferates progenitor braincells in the hypo campus; bc it is the only part of the brain that can grow in a person who is chronically depressed and show me an adult who is not chronically depressed.

Only when the hypo campus is truly fixed can the rest of the brain start to grow; w like I say take three years.

I feel my neurons are like double just like a teenager now.

Also, J’s commandments

It’s a teenager’s reality; when a n’a not judge; plain and simple.

It has brought me to a teenagers reality.

I judged for a little while after listening to something on the bus that I felt w extreme racism.  It rly affected me.  I suppose racism breeds racism.

I just need to own that for a sec and just calm myself.

It’s a clean reality, not judging.  It’s pure; like a say, just like a teenager’s.

That is my goal, to have that reality.

You see I have been away from it since the age of like eighteen; my whole life rly.  And I never got the chance to have like a twenties.  So I want to go back and have the reality of a teenager again.

J’s commandments says that only someone who becomes like a little child can enter the kingdom of heaven.

To me this seems true.  The reality I am talking about is heavenly.

Only when not judging can a n’a appreciate the beauty of that reality.  That’s not judging in the long term for like years and entering eventually that realm of purity.

There’s nothing like it.  It’s just so amazing.  It feels like proper reality, proper proper reality.

And I’m not quite there yet; tho I w watching One Of Us Is Lying; and I realised that a lot of the kids actually are like dysfunctional in many ways anyway; so there’s probably like not that far to go.

With all my memories coming back; it won’t be long til I’m in like a reality where I just have twice the neurons just like a teenager, and have that erm… sense of just being Idk, just k ing that I am, that there is no more reality to have than w I have yk.

Then w any luck my schizophrenia w calm down.

I mean, w twice the neurons, the ones affected by schizophrenia w only be half of them.  This should allow for me to heal.

I have to say that following J’s commandments w the best thing I have ever done, hands down.

Like this reality is just the bomb.dope

I have to take it easy w the business.  I think I did too much today.  Ik that I need to slow down.

The weekend is coming so that I won’t do anything at all; just think of ways to make more money.

Actually researching online and using my phone is no bueno.  I have outlawed myself from doing that totally, at the weekend.

I have found new ways of making money that are absolutely killer, just by thinking and not researching anything, at the weekend.

To me this is the purpose of the sabbath; to think and find ways to make things better.  It was such a powerful way to find more revenue; and up my vibration, self esteem that came to the business, securing me as successful, I feel.  It’s what made me, Ima be real about that, and I w recommend it to anyone; like I say just putting all devices down and just having a think, not even allowing myself pen and paper.  It works, it worked for me, like gangbusters.

I haven’t checked the offer I applied for yet.  I had this tax letter come and I rang them up and just had to put the phone down and take a break; and leave it for the day.

I have thirty days to appeal it.  Tho I don’t have to do any taxes for that period bc I earned no money so hopefully they can just quash it w~o appeal.

To More Neurons

Kirsty