Hey

I got to thinking that I don’t need anything and that I’m completely happy w w I have.

I used to look to other people like they were happier or had something that I wanted.  Now I just don’t even look to them anymore; I am complete w~i.

I have some great relationships in my life w some great people.  I feel connected like ever before and I feel this is due to, me just having the self compassion to…

I just don’t stress myself trying to think of stuff, trying to be smart and intelligent.  This has allowed me to cultivate good empathy.

W this empathy I feel right into people and just feel super connected.  I love this and it makes me happy.

It is a connection that I never had before; or at least didn’t have unless I w younger, like right at the start of my life and in my teenage years.

Tho I feel even closer than that.  Ik that people value me.

When I w young I always felt like my friends were dodging me and didn’t spend that much time w them.

Now like I say, I feel that my friends wouldn’t want to be w~o me and want me in their lives.  I guess they feel about me the same way I feel about them, close.

Ima just go full tilt w the business.  It’s the best way.  Permitted work allows me to earn £167 a week tho if I cut my earnings short to be under that I may end up smack right just above that and stop receiving support.

I want enough money so that I have a cushion where Ima look after myself should anything go wrong.

I have a small ad budget and c actually make hella money off of it should I get the results that the numbers say I w have.

The next thing Ima do is finish the landing page.  I have everything mapped out and just need to fill it out.

Then I w take a break; before I go and post my Google Ad.  Come to think of it I have to create the ad first w w take some work actually, a few days.

Then at that point there is nothing to do except just run it and wait for the money to come in.

I got called rich down Ferry Meadows.  The guy said that I had no case on my phone.  He w cooking chicken.  It’s more that he w feeling my energy.

I am aware now that people rly do see people for who they are.  Everyone is a genius who sees things in people; that’s normal human nature, to be able to peg people or feel things from their energy.

Everybody can do it and it’s a good job bc it allows us to make good choices.

It also allows us to spot potentially abusive situations.  We see it coming a mile off.

It’s normal for people to give people the benefit of the doubt tho people are seldom wrong.

Tho this also means that people are attracted to people like seeing something in them.  I have the same experience; and feel allured by certain people.

This should be a good tool for discerning that I should rly like to fw someone.  I’m excited for this and can’t wait to be rl close w someone.

I used to think life w all about money and that money led to self esteem.  It’s more like the ability to hold my head above water is what makes me feel super good about myself.

I want for nothing.  I am okay as I am; tho I love that I w be supporting myself soon.

Idk what to do w money.  I think Ima save it and invest in Forex so that Ima give lots to charity.  It’s either that or give it all away and risk being stuck if something goes wrong.

I w give myself a year’s money and just hope that that is all I need to find good offers and keep the ball rolling.  I have to admit Idk wtf I’m doing.  I never had a business before and k that many entrepreneurs lose all their money and end up broke.  It kills it off for a lot of them.

The trick is to keep some of the money and invest and that is w I w to do.

I don’t much like Forex as it is super stressful and I may just prefer to keep finding offers.

I just want thins as they are.  I want to go on like this forever, finding love also.

I’ve thought about a family lately and w love this, Idk.  I suppose a family can just be my wife and me; and our friends.

I want to see the world; and just feel the energy of the planet we live on.

I can’t wait till Christmas as this is a special time.  Last year I w stuck and did not get to enjoy it after losing my job and all my friends.  Tho it turned out for the best as I feel the place w toxic; af.

It w a nice day today and it w nice just sitting down Ferry Meadows chilling out.

I remember how I used to go camping; and had such a good time.  I w like to do this again.

I need to buy all the stuff w costs a lot of money.  Money is no longer an issue for me.  It’s great to k that I w be able to afford whatever I want; to never need to scrape again.

I also want to live somewhere nice.  My friend who is no longer w us… she said, doesn’t it make a difference where you live.

I want to try this out in memory of her, and feel exactly w she w talking about.

Ik that life can be good.  It’s been enough years of suffering.  I feel that I now am in G’s kingdom; kinda heaven.

It just shows the power of turning it around.  It w the best choice I ever made.

I love the support of all the people in the services who have helped me.  They kinda have this vibe of just doing my best and working towards something better; w I did.

They were all so right.  It’s possible to have a good life, for anyone; no matter how ill.  It’s always worth it; even tho it takes years; the end result is just peace yk.

So there’s not too much I wanna change in my life rn.  I have done all the heavy lifting and now just live every day and experience things getting better.

Ik life has its ups and downs, and this is definitely an up.

I’m tired of bad things happening to me and rly need to enjoy this for a while.

Here’s To Feeling At Peace

Kirsty