Hey

I have calmed down somewhat.  I tend to get stressed.  I kinda canned the campaign; and I burnt a pan while I was doing it.

My mind w racing and I felt so hopeless.

I have reset.  It w my Christmas tree that did it.

I realised that when I felt like I had to do something different w my tree to make it healthy, that’s when I; let’s be honest I may have killed it.

This translates to the business that all the thinking I w doing when I w in the throws of just feeling hopeless; that thinking w damage the business and possibly well kill it, should I implement any of it.  I just have to carry on no matter how unhealthy the business is.

Or just carry on w it.

I have used a different keyword as that one w just no bueno.  I have also reduced the daily spend to like 79p so that I’m not charged hundred of pounds as the campaign calibrated itself.

All the self love I w feeling w just me needing to carry on w it.  I must trust myself that I got this.  I have about half my ad budget left.

Ima try and get some conversions before it’s gone.

While the campaign is adjusting; I w… do my landing page so that it represents the main selling points of the company; distilled down right to their essence, as the top landing pages do; w just three main points; nothing else on the page to distract customers.

I tried sending the ads straight to the merchant; tho this made little difference w the price of the ads.  Tbh I didn’t think it w tho I w told by my tutor to do this.

My self esteem is rly good.  Ik I got this.

I w thinking about retirement.  I only w have a good one if I run a business.

I’ve been kinda feeling like the people talking past my window are elves.  It rly sounds like this.  It rly helps me to value them.

Ever since I have been bullied by my neighbours; I started to think of them as trash.  This went on for many years and I have only just been able to get back to seeing them the way that I did when I moved in.

I actually quite liked them, even those w ASBD.  It’s nice to be back in that space.

I still struggle w people staring at me.  They look at me w this grin on their face like I’m rly giving them a lot as they rip me open.  It causes me pain to think of the joy they feel as they ruin my day.

And so many of the people in this town are like that, and do that.

I used to go to London and found that no one there w do that.  This only made it worse as I felt that I w being abused living in a bad place; horrid.

I say to them, I don’t like being stared at, please; tho I have had the same people doing it, people I have already said that to.

I just feel that the people are all oafish; and gawk at someone who has self esteem.

I got glared at six times w~i twenty minutes once.  Idk what the hell is wrong w them all.

I have found that Pakistanis dislike n’as and n’as dislike Pakistanis.  There was once this time when I w at work; and a n’a and a Pakistani had beef w each other and I had no clue why they were like that.  Now Ik that they were both racist.

I w not racist myself tho had no clue of the racism of minority races in this country.

In Other News

I have lost a couple of packages.  Both have said they w refund me the money or send another product.  I just need to talk to my neighbours and make sure that they have not taken the parcel in for me.

This makes me feel good.  And it w a nice experience dealing w them.

This w my CBD dooby.  It got took from right outside my door.  It took weeks to arrive and now I have to wait again; all the time not being able to smoke CBD.

This one should have a rl good toke on it and I should get a good feeling off one hit of the full spectrum CBD.

I have a battery to put it on, and am ready to go.  I have the isopropyl alcohol as well to clean it out.

I’m gutted about my trainers as I ordered them at forty percent off.  They are sold out now; tho I am super short of money rn and this w help me a lot.  Tho a conciliation is that they gave me a fifteen percent of coupon w w nice.

I tidied my flat a little bit and need now to sweep and mop the floor.

Thanks For Reading

Kirsty