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I w thinking about the business; and how I c make sure that my landing page converts well.  It all started w a phone call to Royal Mail.

I w on the phone and I had to wait half an hour.  There w this voice that w come over the phone every now and then and lie about how they w get to me as quickly as possible.  I thought that this w bad customer service.

I felt that they didn’t care about the customer and that w w this irked me.

I then started thinking about the business after the phone call; and how all I needed to do was care about the customer like F’ery, and not lie to them.  Show them the product, don’t just describe it, be rly honest about the product and risk them not thinking that it is good enough.  Just say w it is and don’t hype it up.

Customers are savvy af; and they a be seeing whether I care about them.  Should they feel that I do then that is emotional and are w~i businesses.

Buying is an emotional thing.  I have to appeal to their emotions and this is a perfect way to do it.

The brand is also a brand that cares about them, and hopefully when visiting the website they w see that.

I feel it’s a good angle.

I am running ads to all the competitors; and then I w cut out all the ones that don’t have a cheap cost per click, that way ensuring that I get a good return on my ad spend and actually make money.

Also w the landing page attracting them, I should increase the money I make that way.  This should lead to high chances of a profit.

I have to burn through my ad money to do all this and that is fine w me.

Also Something Else

I heard on YouTube; that the only way to skyrocket a business is to just get things out there when they are in-perfect.

This made total sense to me.  Had I agonised and worried about getting the ad just right… a) I would never have run the ad… b) I w never have thought of the way that came to me after running it.

It’s just not something that w have come to me beating myself over the head like that.

So now Ik that it is true; absolutely true that it is right to just run things and make that mistake.  It’s ironic that the fastest way to make money is by just getting things out there that are mediocre; and then later on relishing the inspiration when it comes, and boy it w come.

My self esteem is rly high and I one hundo feel I got this.

I c be so close tho this doesn’t matter to me.

It’s like when I w healing from my anxiety.  I w in agony; bc I thought that I w get better overnight.

Had I accepted that it w actually take years this w have been better for me; far better, infinitely better.

It’s the same w the business.  It causes a trigger; when I run into something that stops me dead in my tracks.  It hurt; like f, that my last attempt flopped.

This comes from me expecting it to work a little too confidently.

I need to always accept that I may be actually far from income; and stop saying that I have super good self esteem, and therefore it w be the next thing after fixing the problem, and there is always a problem.

It feels close tho it may not be; and accepting that w stop the pain I feel when things don’t work.  It’s going against the hope that I had, it seems to gaslight it, and feels like emotional abuse.

Should I not build up in my head that this time things w be right and that this time is the one, that pain w not come.

I have my self esteem and that is enough for me.  I live my life every day and I like my life, I am content.  I have friends and they allow me to respect myself, and that is enough for me.

Yes they should allow me the self esteem that I feel from the business; even tho it may be a ways until I can support myself and join the club of the people who are around me that they have made their life work.

They let me into that club already bc I am a success in my own way.  I deserve to value myself.

That leads me to a video that I watched by Cherie Lorraine.  It w beautiful.  She just told me over and over that I w enough, that people got me and that I have always been enough.

I believed it, I believed her; and I just realised that I have always had value even tho the emotional abuse of a whole lifetime just gaslit me beyond words into thinking that I didn’t.

It undid all that abuse all in one moment as I realised that the only thing that makes people think that they are not enough is trauma.  We all have maximum value if only we could realise it.

That is actually the illness right there, not seeing that we are perfect as we are.

I fee secure attachment and I got it from a website also.  I couldn’t figure out how to get my columns  straight; and I just didn’t know that I could.  Whenever I try and do something, I always go into it thinking that it wouldn’t work.

Tho trying and trying again is what taught me that things can work.  This is how my self esteem went up and always goes up w trying difficult things.

I learned on trying and trying and then always figuring out the problem that these websites all got me bc they actually do all work.

Even things that don’t work, do work; as in the example of Google Ads.  They lie about the cost per click on their keyword planner; tho it is actually so wildly inaccurate that the randomness and shooting wildly at prices, means that it is always easy to find a cheap cost per click by simply running all the keywords of all the competitors.

Life Has Got Me

Kirsty