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I get this agony thing when I’m going to sleep sometimes.  I have to stop and do something that wakes me up, like eat.  It happened three times tonight.

I’m thinking maybe I should have coke zero instead as it w mean that I’m not stuffing myself; and it takes a long time to drink so would work.

It’s midnight.  It’s close enough to the hour of the hunt so Ima write my blog.

I’ve got pétanque tomorrow w I’m rly looking forward to.

J says that if you leave home or father or mother or fields for my sake you won’t fail to get one hundred times as much in this life and in the life to come.

This is true.

I had my mom.  She w cruel and w only see me once a week.   Now I have four activities a week.  I realise that I am much better off.

Being w my n’as is like totally different.  They are not cold callous people; it’s plain to see.  I realised that when I w at the meal we had.

I feel guilty for not going back tho J says do not throw your pearls to swine; lest they turn and rend you.  I take this very seriously and w not.  I also k that she is violent.  And when someone w ASBD has been stood up to they are very likely violent.  I’m genuinely terrified of w they might do.  Similar to swine they might attack.

That is another reason why I need people who are validating; bc I need to be told that I am doing the right thing by staying away; as opposed to being told that I should go back, w is emotionally abusive and I don’t need that from my friends.

That’s the problem w older people.  They think that one’s parents are always right.

J says he w put on this earth to put a sword between people, and he well has.

I feel she is having narcissistic collapse.  I got her hooked on abusing me and then fled.  Somehow I don’t think that anyone w step up into that role.

That’s the problem w children.  When abused from birth they can be taken for a lifetime.  It’s so sad.  I w lucky to get out, very lucky.

I have noticed that some people w ASBD are alright; and others are downright evil.

I had a conversation w someone I felt had ASBD on the Samaritans.  We rly connected.

I feel that she doesn’t deserve me, and that’s putting it mildly.

In Other News

I thought about hydrogen powered cars.

I think the problem that people are coming up with; is that they think they have to be powered by just the hydrogen.

This is well false.  They need tho oxygen as well.  It is the only way to have the engine manifold at one fifth atmospheric pressure.  Which is needed go get one hundred percent efficiency out of the engine.

This is the main problem w hydrogen.  There is no way to get the efficiency.

And I actually believe this w give the care the same power; w is amazing bc you have one fifth the fuel and air going in.

Cars just have too much boom and it is all wasted.

This should also prevent any wastage out of the head valves.

People are already experimenting w this method.  Tho to use hydrogen and oxygen is actually the easiest way.

The injectors could be right in the cylinder, delivering just enough mixture to fill the cylinder w one fifth the air and fuel.

I also think that diabetes is just caused by eating too much.  It causes insulin resistance, w leads to pre diabetes then diabetes.

I asked Dr Berg how to dissolve the clots in my friend’s lungs.  I eagerly await him getting back to me.

I also think that w the hydrogen engine the fact that the fuel burns so fast w make the engine super powerful.

I think I’m coming down w something.  I’ve caught every cold and flu going this winter.

I’m a bit worried about my AlphaFly 3.  It says that they fit small and to go half a size up.  The problem is is that my feet may have grown bc my legs have.

No, seriously, my legs have grown, and I’m fifty, tho yea, they are longer now.

I am only one centimetre taller tho so I think my body has also shrunk.

I eagerly await to see if my business makes money w the keywords I am using.  I have to wait till the ad campaign gets going w w take about a week.  Then I just run it and see w happens.  It’s pretty exciting.

To Hydrogen

Kirsty