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Had a beer down Ferry Meadows.  It w nice.  I w thinking about the business.  It had just worked.

As long as things go as they should; then the cost per click should come down, as it normally does, w such a high click through rate; and bingo.

It’s all about the numbers.  It’s earnings per click over cost per click.

The earnings per click should be good as there is a landing page; and the cost per click should actually be ridiculously low.  There should be a huge profit margin.

And I w wondering why customers were clicking through so much.

My tutor told me that if I want them to click through like hella, then I have to send the customer straight to the merchant w~o a landing page; and here I am sending it to the landing page, and having a crazy click through.

And I w wondering why customers were clicking through so much, and I just got to thinking that it w w they were on the competitor site for they just wanted something not as boring; so they clicked through.

That honestly is w I came up w.  That they were all there in the first place, mostly for the product or type of product I w offering.  I guess it’s their biggest seller, Idk.  Anyways that’s what I came up w.  I’ve got to try and replicate this so it’s best that I understand the reason why.

At the very least, Ik that bc I’ve done it the once, it is possible again; so I have that hope rly for future offers.

I don’t rly want to think it through too much.

 I w wasted off of my beer, rly stoned; as I went into the toilets; and then walked down the stairs on my way out; just riding home stoned af, avoiding all the kids riding through Ferry Meadows.

I have to rind my bell like the whole time, and they let me through.

I then went to ALDI and got some rly nice strawberries and a sandwich that w super cheap so I w happy.

I had not eaten since eight in the morning, and I must get some dinner soon.  I bought a pie in Sainsbury’s; and some salad to have w it.

On second thought Idk if salad is gonna go w pie and gravy.

I thought I w over this cold tho I have another f headache.  I just took paracetamol.

I did the right thing.  I just ran the offer.  I had seen a video that said don’t try and get things perfect just run the offer, done beats perfect every time.

I burnt though lots of money on my ads doing it tho now I feel the rocket ship w go up.

I covered this before.  It substitute for me believing in myself.  If I run the offer then it has the same effect as me believing in myself even tho I didn’t.

Doubting my abilities to create a good landing page is absolute death; and it gets me posting w I have and then working on it later, as opposed to never letting it go, out into the world to do it’s funky thing.

Also, the answer to how to create the best landing page only comes after it has been posted, it’s just how it works and the only way to do it.

I never wanted to be like a landing page guru or anything, I just wanted money the easiest way.

I w lucky to land on UnBounce.  They distill what is needed for a landing page, right down in the same way a landing page needs to distill the best qualities of the products right down to a few words.  You just put three things why the product/products are the best.

An amount of super success w something I wanted tho now I don’t.  Like I don’t feel comfortable w being some kinda expert in all this, yk.  I just wanna hit my twenty and get out.  I’m scared that people w see me differently.  I don’t like actually being seen as someone who is an expert, like I say.

It’s like I told the BioChem girls.  It’s not what you study it’s who you are; that nails the exams and sh.

I guess it’s my job now to motivate other people now that I have nailed it; tho like I say, I must never think that bc when things go wrong it makes me feel like sh bc I’ve built it up so much that it w work.

In Other News

I tried my trainers on and I think they are okay; if Ima get them on my f feet; it’s a tight af fit.  Once they are on tho they fit super well.

I’m hoping to wear them tomorrow.  I don’t even think Ima have socks on bc they just won’t fit over them.

I have kinda ended up the exact person as a narcissist I w have allocated the most value.  This is hard for me bc I am trained to feel grandiose w it, better than other people; and this is w I’m scared of.

Ik that should I not judge people I won’t be a dick this way.  It’s just how it works.  Judgement is like the disease that causes this feeling of grandiosity.

 I went through this before.  I felt that people were staring at me the whole time, and it just w so unpleasant I got ripped up several times every day, it w hell; and my response to this w to align w London bc they never did it to me there.

I have to confess, I thought I w better than other people.  I feel it w judgement that allowed me to feel this way.

I w at knit and natter and the girl I sit w said something about someone being a snob and I don’t want to ever be this way.  Another girl who goes there is super successful and is one hundo down to earth and Ik that that is who I want to be.  She is lovely and gave me a lift home one time.

To All This Crazy Sh Going On

Kirsty