Hey

I have just, drumroll please, started a new Google Ads Account.

This means that, might mean, that I get the cost per click that I should get; for my campaign; w w mean that it suddenly becomes profitable.

This is the scary thing, that it w work; bc it w mean that my life changed super dramatically; w w be Idk, I mean, no one likes change, do they.

Tho change is the only way to see a difference and boy do some of us want to see a difference; and by some of us I mean me.

Tbh my life is good atm.  Tho things w need to change soon and I’m getting ahead of the game.

Ik that I w recover from my schizophrenia sooner or later w w mean that I have to carve a life for myself; in a situation where I have gotten absolutely nowhere when it comes to having a career.

It is good that I have been doing this Permitted Work, so that I’m able to move into this.

It allows me to make the huge jump into starting w something that I’m actually rly good at, and, hopefully, make a lot of money w.

I want my psychiatrist to lower my medication, tho one of the biggest signs that I am not ready is if I feel that there is nothing w w me; w is w it w look like should I ask him to have it reduced; so I must rly, maybe just go and see him tomorrow, and just not mention it and hope that he lowers it.

Tbh I’ve been trying to not think about it bc it is wigging me the f out.

If it were lowered it w just mean hearing things that people aren’t saying like a little bit of the time, w is nothing rly.  It’s nothing to be scared of at all.

And also; this is the best time of the year to do this, and I don’t want to lose this window of opportunity.  I definitely can’t do it in the winter or autumn, as this just won’t work.

So, like I say, I’m trying to not think about it.  It w only mean that I’m nervous af when I see him and he might take this to mean illness, w w be super bad.

On the plus side, he did lower my Buspirone, just a little while back, w shows that he is a super neat dude.

In Other News

I have ordered a bad from Nike; and I hope that it’s not too big as a girl don’t wanna be humping round something that doesn’t look dainty af, that just ain’t right.

So, I’m hoping that it’s just the right size.  I don’t think from Nike, It’s gonna look whack.

I need something to put my phone in when I am rocking no pockets, yk.  I w at Bowling and had left it in my bad and it w wigging me the f out, bc should I leave it anywhere my insurance w not cover that; so I’m keep it on me; at all times.

G I hope that my Ads Account fixes itself.  It has been charging me like way over the odds for ads; and this is all bc I.. It’s bc I changed the settings on my ads account and they can’t be put back.

I should now get, or rather will get the right price for my ads.  The only exception is if that is actually the right price for the ad and the keyword planner has shown a cheap one when it isn’t rly, w just doesn’t happen that often so I should be good.

Omg I’m so excited to see what kind of price Ima get for my ads; and Ima totally relax about the situation bc now Ik that I w be able to find cheap ads that will make profitable offer.

There is nothing w w the business model that I am doing and this thing is probably what is causing me to struggle.

This means that Ima find profitable offers to my hearts delight and Ik that Ima do this.  This is just a sublime feeling that I w be able to hit a good offer and make some money.

It w happen sooner or later and sooner rather than later.

I have been working towards this for quite some time; and I have actually several offers lined up.

I w just writhing in f knows w, with this f up thing going on in my account.

No matter w, Ik that changing the settings f up my account bc it always does.

Again, back to change.  I must keep any income to myself as I don’t want people to feel that I am stuck up, and if they don’t k that I’m making any money, how they a say that.

Tho Ik that being stuck up is something that anyone can be no matter how poor they are.  It’s actually a good thing.

If someone identifies as posh, then they a fw posh people regardless of how much money that have.  People should be able to choose the social niche that they want in on, no matter what their circumstances are.

Tho like I say, I don’t want this niche and at best want to be in both.

To Being A Girl Who Can Do Both

Kirsty