Hey

I am at the Windmill.

I w down Ferry Meadows and the Lakeside w shut; so I’ve come here; and I realise that the beer w be a lot cheaper; I hope.

I’ve started in on looking at how to write a prompt for an AI landing page copy writer; and I have seen that there are like instructions on things that are needed to k about the business and the customers, and Ik that I w need to follow the first couple of items and see how I get on.

I’ve started doing my taxes as well, and got to the point where I have to tell them that it is a foreign income.  Ik that it is the US, bc I had to fill out a W8-BEN.

I did some tidying up and put some things in my bin downstairs, and did a little bit of cleaning stuff out my cupboard.

I have to be honest.  I felt that I wouldn’t be able to do it.  I thought that it w something that I did when I w young, bc I just w youthful and healthy, and that it w something that I just didn’t have the ability to do now that I’m older.

I w completely wrong.  I have found it easy to clean my cupboard out, and it doesn’t rly matter where I put things to fit them in bc I have plenty of space in there.

This made me feel amazing as I don’t feel like I am past it when it comes to this now.

I’m at the Windmill and I have to wait a half an hour before Ima get in, tho the guy did let me use the toilet w I rly needed.

You see, the toilets at Ferry Meadows are being renovated and I just thought that I w just shoot straight down here.

I wrote to a vicar, asking what activities were on at the church, and she has gotten back to me saying that she is rev’ at five churches.  I hope to ask her about activities at all five, where to go to find out what’s on.

I have to say that I w just down, over looking for things to do locally.  I just didn’t like the vibe of the meetup app, or the city council one.  I then looked online and just felt like it w not the type of thing for me, the kind of things I w seeing.

So this is rly good that she should be able to help me find stuff and I’m happy about that.

I could particularly say to her that I’m rly super interested in coffee and natter or craft and natter.

I feel that provision for these in my city is sorely lacking; and I wonder, why do not people wanna just sit and talk.  Why does there have to be like this pretence of like doing an activity together, I don’t rly get it.

I just got my beer.  The guy invited me in and I’m drinking.

In Other News

I had this revelation.  Unfortunately it means that I have been judging people unfairly; that’s if I’m right.

I had this feeling when I w at home of just being worthless; and this w the first time that I had ever noticed feeling this way suddenly at home.

Nothing had triggered it, it had just come right out of nowhere.

This led me to think that when I get triggered, it’s not actually to do with what is going on externally; it’s more to do with the natural ebb and flow of just how much self esteem I am feeling.

Like this w news to me, that self esteem just naturally goes up and down; kinda on its own.

This is what I am thinking, and it makes me feel happy that for years I have been trying to not judge people, as.. it w meaningless anyway.

I actually came out, to just be around other people.  This has not happened tho.

Bc of the weather.. there is just no one here and there is likely not to be many people here.

I’ve got some shopping to do on the way home; and that w be my day.  I must remember to get some loo roll and some veggie burgers.

I tried these Birds Eye ones.  I w just floored w how good they were; totally delicious.  I have them w my breakfast.

I have opted to not buy the North Face Jacket, as this w give me more income for ads, this month.

And That’s My Day

Kirsty