Hey

I wanted to write a little bit about brain mapping and judgement.

Idek how to start this piece.

So I had this thought; w w that judgement isn’t a part of the brain that is separate; it actually takes up space that should be used for other functions.

The other function I’m talking about is, just awareness and discernment in its purest form.

So basically judgement prevents the mind from having discernment.  The deeper the judgement the less of the mind that w be devoted purely to discernment.

I reject judgement as a form of awareness.  I feel that it is the part of the mind that is used for pathological narcissism.

It is also an awareness modality that causes anxiety.

Take racism.  Should I have a racist feeling about someone, I w immediately feel like the worst person ever, and have an anxiety attack.

I w feel that just by thinking that thought I w disrespecting that person; that they might have seen my body language while I w thinking it and deem me to be totally worthless.

It’s also paranoid.  Judgement is a reality where there is always the thinking that someone is doing the thing that the judger is always looking out for.  It fact I used to live in fear of the ways I thought people were being, Idk, don’t know how to describe it tho I didn’t think well of them.

Also, like I say; the judger is also prone to the thoughts that they judge other people w to be transferred onto them; that the level of worthlessness that they judge on people to at times, just land on them and take all their self esteem in one fail swoop.

This is bc the judging part of the mind is just so much more powerful and takes control.  It makes up most of the mind so will seize power often and do much damage.

As the part of the mind that is left for actual discernment is so small it rarely sees the light of day.  This is the part of the mind that could right the ship, should judgement cause anxiety; tho it is so feeble it doesn’t have the power to do so and the anxiety attack lasts.

Eventually it takes control over an hour later, only to be overridden again bc of the might of the judging part of the brain.

Should a brain map be taken it w show clearly that the judgement map is far larger and dominates.

It is the same evil that causes racist people to kill, and must have taken over everyone’s mind in the days of Hitler; much like a disease or awareness glitch.

I feel that is why Jesus warns of not judging; bc it essentially is evil.  It spreads and takes over the whole of the mind.

Prescription medications don’t help.  They cause the mind to be easily triggered, w leads to judgement of the people and behaviors that cause the wound; leading to the thinker judging more and becoming more firmly rooted in anxiety and evil.

Like I say, it is not a real reality, leading to an inability to keep boundaries w people due to not having the awareness of what their intentions are.

The real awareness is not judging, and will save the person from harm and being taken advantage of, by allowing the person to see the world for what it is and make choices based out of that awareness, true awareness.

There is nothing like sanity and judgement will never replace it, and never be powerful enough to do the same job.

The mind is corrupted to much so that it took me five years to get to where I am now.  That is how much damage had been done to my mind, how far judgement had taken over, leaving nothing for real discernment.

The mind needed for that brain map to change and give me resources back to the part of my mind out of which sanity arises.  It took five years till the sanity part of my mind had taken control back.

That is why I felt so un alive, dead inside.  Sanity had been pushed out of my mind.  With it the ability to feel, to feel good, to feel anything, ergo feeling dead.

And feeling insane as well; feeling like I w be taken advantage of, bc of not seeing it coming; not even knowing what the hell boundaries were; not knowing what is normal to say no to.

The part of the mind that w aware of what goes on inside of people and what they will put up with and what they won’t w gone.

When I wanted to assert a boundary there w no knowing whether I w supported in my decision, and hence I dropped the boundary and anything goes, as they say; living in constant fear of the worst through just not saying no to it.

As I w evil, I w living in hell; a hell that took like I say five years to climb out of.

Do Not Judge

Jesus

Kirsty