Hey

I’m sitting down Ferry Meadows.  I feel like I’m getting closer to the people at bowling

I was uncomfortable at first there was this distance it felt like Idk how to describe it.

It seems that my closeness to people is my happiness level; I guess I’m just happier now

I suppose I never done this before and I was apprehensive like it felt like it wasn’t working.  I guess to be honest I felt rejected; The kind of rejection I felt like I was feeling I feel coming from an abusive situation.  I guess I, I was scared and I just assumed that’s how how it was going to be for life

Bowling today was really quite magical I felt this world opening up to me like it was opening for the first time.

So there’s not only just the good thing of not needing my medication anymore; there’s this as well. It seems like a lot of things are going right nowadays.

I just wanna make it clear that I have to go thru the slow process of it gradually being reduced.

There were many years when I thought that I would live my whole life and I would never feel the normal things that a person experiences.

In other news

I keep finding offers and prices of clicks, add clicks that are very possibly likely to create ways of making money

I found an affiliate offer that provides the material for putting on landing pages.; And it also happened to be that it was showing the Google keyword planner was showing that the cost per click that I’ve managed to find for the ads I will put these people in front of was insanely cheap and I know that the keyword planner is complete nonsense like it’s completely random but it’s just it seems that it just puts me in like a positive frame of mind, in a positive frame of mind about the whole thing.

Like I always warn myself though, it’s very dangerous to think that this is going to work, as it leads to being upset when it doesn’t.

I had less sleep last night, but it seemed to just improve things. I was having a conversations and my bowling was the best it’s ever been.

The weather definitely helps as well it’s been absolutely gorgeous we don’t often get like 24,25° this time of year.

it really was the perfect time to reduce my medication 

Also 

I managed to stop drinking beer every day.  I was Joan saying a ass coming down off my medication and I knew that I needed something like I always do.  I had to come to an end though.

Here’s to following Jesus’s commandments and trying to make the right choices 

I felt for years that nothing was happening and then suddenly all this.

To The Power Of God

Kirsty