Hey

I’ve just been to knit and natter.  I’m learning about being sociable; that it takes learning.

I w watching this film, mean girls, and they called her a social retard, bc she had lived in Africa all her life and been home schooled.  I kinda felt a little hurt.  That w a rly good film btw.

I w given a project to do.  It w a square w a heart in it.  I have learnt a lot today, and I need a rest now.

I have to go to a hospital tomorrow and one of the ladies told me how to get there.  I’m going to go on the train.  It might be a nice day out and I’ll need to find somewhere to get lunch.  Ik that I’ll find an ALDI or Lidl where Ima get a sandwich.

I checked on the business and it is doing well.  What I didn’t check on w the cost per click of the new campaign I’m checking out.  It w only make me feel bad to see a high cost per click that there always is when starting a new campaign.

I’m looking forward to having a beer on Thur and Fri.  It’s nice to go in a pub.  It gives me so much more of a nice buzz to drink in a pub.  I’ll have a Coke first bc it makes me feel so good.

I’m down Ferry Meadows rn and the weather is lovely.  I’ll have to go ALDI soon for a sandwich, I’m getting hungry.  I want to have a walk round the lake first.

This is me learning how to like even talk to people.  I felt I w in an abusive situation, w someone who never ever talked to me.  All we used to do w watch tv together.  I never learned how to talk to people.

I w have these very strong feelings like I couldn’t cope, with just talking to them, it w unpleasant.

I suppose that’s the catch 22 with making like a social effort is the discomfort of not being very good at it.  It challenged my self worth w I didn’t like.  I w dealing w a lot of shame and it w hard to do something that kinda aggravated that.

I loved them so much tho.  I loved being there, it made me feel amazing.  I didn’t rly have a choice.  There is no way to survive or live in a world w no talking to people.

Human beings are social animals and continuing just being totally antisocial would have not even been possible.  It’s just not possible to be alone all the time.  I don’t even want to talk about what that feels like.

I’m wondering about going to ALDI and then coming back, I’m starting to feel cold.

The knitting w a heart on a square w a border.  I w just doing the border, to begin w bc I w not at the level to do the heart.  I w talking to one of the girls as I left, thanking her for all the wool and needles that she gave me, and she said that I w soon get bored doing just the border.

It’s not too late to include the heart as well and that is w I w do.  They w be shocked at, that I have done the heart as well, I can’t wait.  I kinda promised to do like an hour before next week.

If the ads cost a good price, then I w apply for the affiliate offer.  Omg, it gives me tingles to think about it.  Yk what, the business makes me so happy.  Like it’s a rly good hobby to have, I love it so much.  I’m getting a little experienced w it and I feel that is where the joy comes from

I’m so excited for whether this offer has ads that are rl cheap.  This is totally possible, and w mean instant profitability; nice.

Like I keep saying tho, Google Ads metrics are up the wazoo.  I think they don’t get any of their figures right.  I reckon I’ve seen all of them wrong.

The three figures are how many people search every month a particular thing they type in; how much the ads cost; this one definitely is complete nonsense; and the competition.

For example the offer I am oh so hoping I go w, I typed into Google five time my competitor’s name, and there were no ads, and yet it says high competition.

It’s good to not trust a well respected company.  Like there is nobody on this planet who’s sh don’t stink.  Just bc they are the oh so almighty Google doesn’t mean that they are any different to anyone else.  Maybe I don’t respect anyone, Idc.

I don’t believe in grandiosity being like a positive personality flaw, Ik where all the bodies are buried.  I’m being rl cheeky here tho you have to take things w a pinch of salt

To Life

Kirsty