I just took my letter into the Post Office saying that my psychiatrist has changed my diagnosis.
It took me a while to get it in there bc this week I had a puncture on my scooter and it sent things a bit hard to get around; so most of my efforts were spent just making sure that I c get to the places I needed to get to.
I’m thinking of taking my scooter w me to the doctors and then walking it from there to the shop.
It w be a long journey tho once it’s done it’s done; and then five days later, hey presto, I w have my scooter back, like nothing had ever happened.
Ima relax now, now that I’ve done it. It w rly important and it w hard for me for it taking over a week to get done.
I also never slept the night before last; and this meant that that day I just never got a single thing done.
I’ve been feeling guilty for not being able to do things. I feel a lot of shame and this w coming up w these things.
I have learnt tho that there is no shame whatsoever in having anxiety. I have seen someone w anxiety and my heart just went out to them. I w never see myself the same when I have anxiety, like it’s something to be ashamed of or that I have been bad for getting it.
That w how I used to feel, like people were irritated w me for having anxiety and that I w bringing their mood down for being so unhappy; talk about a people pleaser.
No, seriously tho; I try my hardest when I have anxiety to not bring people down. Sometimes my shame takes over and I take things the wrong way, like I’m feeling less self worth at the time and I might think that someone is being funny w me for just making sure that they are respected.
Ik it’s vague, it’s just that I’m in a mood where Ima feel like I’ve done something wrong and get incredibly defensive about it.
I’m thinking if I pump my tyre up and take the beast into town, then Ima walk to the shop and then walk to the pub, when I’m done there, or catch the erm 25 bus. I think Ima time it okay to do that, I’m feeling it.
I have a blood test. It’s an important one bc if the tests don’t come back w good news then it means that I have a brain tumour.
When I say it like that it sounds like I am in big risk of one w I am not. It’s complicated tho when the tests comes back I w k for sure that it’s unlikely that I have one.
I keep needing to take pain killers bc otherwise I w get a headache and it’s kinda doing my head in. I don’t like needing drugs all the time. Idk what the hell is w w me.
I need to pause my ads campaign until I have added the stuff to my landing page. I went to Unbounce and used their AI landing page copy maker to get some stuff that Ima put on.
They want me to pay for the copy tho I am just using the free features to get the job done, I’m kinda cheating and putting all the prompt I can in the boxes so that it does a fairly good job.
They give me less words to put in, I just make sure that I fill it all up.
I don’t feel well, Idk what the hell is w w me.
Then I w run the campaign and see if it makes any money.
The landing page copy is supposed to get more customers bc it used like date from loads of websites and landing pages to tune what they write in the copy to make sure that it works better.
I’ve been struggling w a little bit of anxiety all day.
Kirsty
Miss K 