Hey

I’m down the pub.

I just kinda left w|o doing all the things that I normally do.  I haven’t washed or shaved.  I have to be back in time for the girl from my housing association.

I’m rly lucky that I have gotten into the pub at ten to, so I’ll have forty minutes here and then head back in time to do some stuff she asked me.

My knitting is going well.  I have done quite a bit, and, haven’t needed to take it back, w means that I have messed up and need to undo it.

I am so happy that I got my scooter to the shop.  It w only take a couple of days to get it done.

I’m also happy that I have been able to get about and get all the things done that I needed to.

I have done hella walking.  I w so knackered this morning, my legs were aching after going like seven miles yesterday.

I don’t think there is anything w w my heart, as I do a lot of walking and never get pain from it.  The Doctor also thinks that it’s probably nothing.

I’m very happy that my blood pressure has actually gone down.  It c have gone up bc of brushing my teeth.

That may sound strange tho it is exactly how it works, mouthwash being the worst.  The dentist even said to not use it.

There’s a scientific explanation tho Ima not give it here; or maybe I w in the below paragraph.  Please may you skip that if you’re not into that.

So bacteria in the mouth produce nitric oxide w dilates the blood vessels, reducing blood pressure.  Mouthwash kills them all.

I have been practising a few tracks; Maisie Peters, You Lost The Breakup; I Wanna Get Him Back, by Olivia Rodrigo, and Idk what it’s called by Bebe Rexha.

I w scrolling through my music and found a few things that I c sing w w nice.

I always w gutted that I wanted to sing tho couldn’t remember anything that I have learned; so now I have some that I sang this morning.

I believe that there is such a thing as singing too much.  I kinda get fed up w it if I sing too much.  I’m trying to practice tho I just get like I say, fed up w it.

I am trying one of the products for my business.  Hopefully I w be able to write a good landing page based on key features of what I find.

In Other News

I have got interested in shame.  It causes anxiety.  I suppose it is w people who have been raised by someone w an empathy impairment.

I think it’s just the result of someone living w someone who has an empathy impairment.  It just happens that for some reason or another they just end up feeling like tons of shame and this leads to anxiety attacks for life rly.

It is a temporary existential state where they feel like they are unworthy.  Worthy in fact of people feeling that they are like a bad person or something, they feel, while in that state.

To Not Feeling Shame

Kirsty