Hey

I’m rly feeling positive about the business.

I went through the reviews and they were all blindingly  positive, apart from the ones from affiliate marketers that all left a one star review bc they had failed to make money at it.

I had thought that the company had three star reviews until I actually read them.

Ima have my expectations low.  I hope to not lose that much money to ad spend bc I may make a little money from customers.  That’s all I’m hoping for.

I did litter picking today w I love.  I had forgotten how much I love it until I w doing it again.  It feels amazing.

I only did like an hour tho it should mean that when I have my beer, I should not feel like I’m drinking alone bc I have just been out doing something.

I prefer to drink alone when I am coming up w ways to make the business work better.  I have better ideas.  It seems that being around other people actually lowers my energy.

I had a thought about racism; for people to just think that it’s not their responsibility.

I had lots of good ideas for the business and am very happy w the position I’m in.

It’s nice to be doing lots of groups in the week.

I w walking through Thistlemore road, and w shocked at how posh it felt.

It’s a council estate and feels like so like Idk.  I felt good walking through there.

One of the houses w a 1908 cottage.

I just thought how nice it w for people to provide the homes that people needed back then; and that they so met people needs that they still live in them today.

It felt like there’s lots of money in the world and lots of opportunity.  I felt that the people were generally  happy living there and it w such a nice vibe.

Also another area I walked through w also nice; and even another road that I went through.  It w so rewarding to walk around and see how people live.

I w picking up the recycling; just bottles and cans.  I was far ahead of everyone bc there w not much recycling to pick up.

I needed a bag, so went back to get one and one of them kindly gave me one.

It’s reinforced in me that I rly want to be doing it.  As the week passed since last week, I kinda forgot how good it felt and wondered this morning if I should be committing to it.  Like I say, the vibe of doing it blasted all these doubts into a million pieces.

It has ended up one of my favourite activities.

When I have my beer I w think of ways to make more money at what I’m doing.

Last time I did this.. actually it needs saying that having a beer just filled me w creativity so bad that I w actually shocked at how much good sense I had come up w.

That’s why I want to drink alone again, for the benefit to the business that it provides for me.  If I carry on doing that, surely things w go super well.

When I am down Ferry Meadows, and I’m speaking into my phone, it feels like I’m trying to be grandiose and showing off to people like I’m super successful or something.  When I am at home it just feels like I’m actually good at coming up w ways to try things to get me further into a working business model; my self esteem doesn’t even come into it.

I suppose that it’s the sanctity of my home.  It is my safe space and it should be like I feel nurtured there to come up w the best stuff.

To Having A Beer And Having A Think

Kirsty