Hey

Just had lunch.

Got back from bowling and put something together straight away; and a cup of tea.

I’m thinking about judgement; and that I probably judge more than I think I do.

This means that there is a lot of progress that Ima make w it, eventually.  It takes years to get judgement down, and mental illness w it.

I just had my doctor ring me and he seems to think that there is nothing to worry about.

They may do an MRI of my pituitary gland; w w be nice bc I w like an MRI bc I’ve got maybe, most probably not a heart problem and this w save me from having a scan, I think; w w be absolute tons of radiation.

Fun fact.  MRI’s turn every atom in your body fully upside down, in effect turning you over w|o turning you over, creepy.

That absolutely doesn’t bother me and w take them over an x ray any day.

He said that he w leave that to the people treating me.  Idek if I wanna see my brain; tho when they examine the image, I w ask them to look out for a womb and tell me if I have one; w w be another good thing that Ima get out of this.

I thought that the last girl who looked at my image said that I have one.

He said that the levels were pretty similar to what they were last year, I think.

I need to clean my cooker tho I just used it, so I’m doing this until it cools down.

I feel that my cleaning my home actually powers me running the business.  I feel that it gives me the self esteem to be able to make it work; as far as it has done.

I rly want to lean into the business and get this offer up.  It w mean reading all the reviews and coming up w some really appealing positive selling points.  That’s where I am w it.

Like I say, in order to make sure that it goes well, I have to tidy up.  Ik it sounds insane tho that’s what Ima go w; and have believed so for a long time, ever since I started on my home, w the girl from my housing association.

I also have to cancel Constant Contact, an email marketing platform, as I am not doing email marketing atm, to the horror of the best affiliate marketers.  No, I w just make it work by having a nice low price I pay for my ads.

I have been very lucky w my ads.

I just ethically don’t want to do that.  It doesn’t feel right as I don’t like receiving email marketing.

Instead I should rly just go to the best products on the internet that have the strongest selling points and just get them out there for people to indulge in what they offer.  The high converting landing page w make up for no email marketing; and my cheap ads, hopefully.

All this is stressing me out and I don’t want to talk about the business anymore.

To Healthcare

Kirsty