Hey

I just went down to the shop to pick up my parcel and it wasn’t there.  I feel a bit, Idk, I’m just feeling a bit weird after.

I managed to not worry about it and just let it go and not judge the lady at the shop.

I don’t feel like going down Ferry Meadows to write my blog now and w just stay at home.

I made two YouTube videos last night and w link them here

Actually I’m pretty fed up now.  It is telling me that I need to un list the videos to be able to share them.

I feel like I’ve been stabbed in the back.  That has actually upset me now, I wasn’t in the mood for that.

I said to myself that I wouldn’t downgrade constant contact bc I w upset.  I’m fuming.  I don’t even feel like writing this now.

I had a good morning and got lots of things done and w just raring to get the constant contact sorted, and do whatever on the business that I c.

I can’t think about that either, how the hell Ima get my videos on my blog, I just have to let it go.

Yea, I w talking about empathy and a big part of it is just letting things go when upset and leaving sorting them till later.

My mind is as bit fuzzy and now I have anxiety.

I have croquet this afternoon w should be good, if I’ve calmed down by then.

I remember when the littlest thing w ruin my day.  I w drop something in the morning like a pill or something and it w ruin my whole day.

It w the medication I w on.  It w supposed to be for anxiety tho w giving me panic attacks all day some days.

I’m thankful that now when I’m upset Ima still function.  I go shopping and am able to remember the things that I came for.

I feel I get stared at when I am upset like this and it can rly f me up bc the more they do it the more I get upset and then the more they do it.

It’s like instead of people side eyeing me, I feel they w actually look at me when I’m upset and I get upset when they do this.

It feels so cruel that when I am upset I have to deal w them looking at me in an uncomfortable way.

I’m judging so Ima let that go.

What I’m saying is that I’m scared that this w ruin my whole day.

That’s how I feel every time I’m upset, that I won’t be able to shake it off.

I just want to say the thing that everyone is thinking w is that when there is something stressful happens, there is that second thing that the person doesn’t need that sends them into a state of mind when they are struggling to recover from it.

I just wanna put a shout out to everyone who has anxiety and is doing their best just to get through life w|o feeling upset all the time.

It’s such torture and I just wanna say that Ik your pain.  There’s literally no quality of life there.

I’m lucky, when I’m upset, it’s not that bad.  Like I say Ima still function and get things done; tho getting things done is not always the most important thing.  Like I said, I w not try and unsubscribe to Constant Contact or think how to deal w the two problems that I now have.

I’m pretty much out of action now and I just have to be cool w that.

To Taking It Easy When Upset

Kirsty