Hey

I have come down to Ferry Meadows; and I haven’t had a beer.

It w life changing and it started w actually having a beer; so that I didn’t need caffeine.

It w a big problem, tho Idk it at the time.

Now I don’t even need a beer; so it’s made me not need caffeine as much, and beer also.

Alls I did w to reduce the number of cups that I had every day.  I’m due to have a Pepsi Max in about twenty minutes.

I’m not doing anything today; it’s Sunday.

I thought I’d have my sabbath on Saturday and work on Sunday, tho when I woke up this morning it felt like the sabbath and I thought that I had kinda got it wrong and that the only day that can be the sabbath is a Sunday.  So I’ve had two sabbaths this weekend.

I’ve also discovered that shopping kills the sabbath vibe; so I’m not doing that.  It w actually hard and quite nuanced to tell the difference.

It w be nice to have some time to myself; as I just have been doing stuff all week.  Plus, has I gone to litter picking today, it wouldn’t have felt like sabbath vibes; even tho I love it so much.

I w watching something on YouTube, a short of like this challenge show; physical challenge; and I realised, that, we are still living in the same era as I used to be in when I w younger.

Like, I used to think that the world’s gone to pot and stuff like that, and for a kid, experiencing the world and enjoying their youth, they w find it no different to I did.

This makes me realise that reality as Ik it, is still there and just waiting for me to enjoy it.  I can’t wait, I loved some things so much when I w younger.

We got cable, and there w all these rly dope things on, like hill climbing and Clive James and Allan Wicker, and like Fifteen to One w rly good, and don’t get me started on Blockbusters; the show not the franchise.

I have to be careful that I’m not becoming a little ill.  I have reduced my medication and.. how do I say this; I have noticed that peoples’ intentions feel meaner in the things that I am hearing them say; slightly.

Tho things are going well and I’m feeling okay.

I w absolutely be in awe, should he reduce it further in July, as Idek how this is possible, as I had a relapse last year, and only like six months ago; that amount w not enough, I w losing it so bad that I went to them for help and desperately needed the dose to be raised.

So it w be rly shocking if I manage to pull this off.

I’m not thinking about the business today.  On previous Sundays, I have had some incredible inspiration, tho it’s more important for me today, to enjoy the day.

To Sunday’s

Kirsty