Hey

I have decided to not judge people.

I am aware that my psychiatrist, feels that it w be best for me

On the upside, I enjoyed being on the bus; w is a hard thing for me as I kinda feel that a lot of  behaviour is rude.

My scooter got fixed and I have it back in one day; w is super nice.

I have decided to have just two beers a week; and reducing my caffeine has been great.  I forgot to have a coffee this morning, and never had time to.  I just left w|o and had my coke as usual just before going in the pub.

I w on the bus, and thought to myself, if I lose it, then it’s not all bad.  J says that when people do evil stuff bc of ‘me’, great w be your reward in heaven.

So, I’m thinking that being upset from day to day doesn’t matter, and that it year on year, sees a more chill vibe; tho I understand that it still is painful tho.

The bus w super nice to me and waved goodbye, w rly changed the way I felt about the busses.

I guess the more I’m around people, the more I w be able to handle ‘rude’ behaviour; like the people who were shouting in the pub just now.

So..

The theory goes something like this.

Not judging improves the number of Neurons in the mind.  Having enough neurons, eventually means that decisions are easy to make and a n’a not worry about things, like bad things happening whatever.

It provides the needs of boundaries and all that that otherwise w come from a person feeling all their feelings.

When I say boundaries, I don’t rly mean standing up to people all the time.  It’s more like just being chill and not feeling like people are taking the pi’.  Idek how to explain this; tho tbh I feel I have more Neurons now and that it why Ima cope; that is the way I cope.

Like, teenagers have like twice the Neurons of adults; and I feel that I am becoming more in that awareness.

I suppose that my psychiatrist feels that I need to become an adult and that I need to lose half my Neurons.  I don’t think so.  I don’t wanna lose half my mind, no thanks; and that is what judging people all the time w do to me.

They say that after forty, people lose so many braincells a day, and here I am, feeling like I am actually getting more every day.

In Other News

The business is on hold.  I have to save money that Ima spend on ads.

I rly went crazy last month and need to kinda repair the damage to my savings.  I am being a good girl and being careful.  I w see how I stand at the end of the month.

I have an idea and Idk whether it w work.  It is to just run ads straight to my merchant.  It’s a cheat that gives me, hopefully a crazy low cost per click w w mean profitability straight out the box.

I am running a campaign to find out whether this w work.  All Ima do is look at the numbers.

To Having More Neurons

Kirsty