I feel that everywhere I go, people are trying to get narcissistic supply out of me.
They do this thing where it feels like they are trying to manipulate my body language so that they feel good.
The problem when they do this is that, it leaves me feeling bad. Could what’s going on here be narcissistic supply.
So I’ve actively resisted their attempts to get that from me; and it’s meant that my self esteem stays in tact.
Bc I resisted them tho; I feel they have subconsciously upped the anti; and now every time someone walks past me they make a comment sl’ someone off.
I feel this is to get the narcissistic supply that they never got from me kinda cowering w my body language.
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I completed Advertiser Verification. I just have to wait now for like one to ten days, for them to approve it.
It could mean the whole town is pathologically narcissistic, if they all try and get narcissistic supply off me; if it’s constant behaviour that never stops.
I feel like they’re trying to belittle me w their body language, and I don’t like it. Why can’t I just walk around and maintain my confidence w|o feeling like people are desperately trying to take it from me. Why does it have to be an effort.
I feel that this w be another thing that I have to deal w.
It’s like the Peterborough twitch, as I call it.
People started to shoot their hand to their head, when I grew in confidence; and it got worse and worse all the time this w happening, until I w get people who w do it repeatedly. It w rip me up and ruin my day.
I w in the dentist surgery and this woman w doing it continuously and it ripped me right up and upset me, I feel.
Now I have to deal w people bitching about someone. They blurt something out at the very moment I walk past them; and I feel that this is a new behaviour that I w have to deal w, just like the twitch.
People used to stare at me. I remember the first time this happened, knowing that it w be something that I w have to deal w from then on. Yes; it got worse and worse, until it w totally unbearable and leaving me w no quality of life. I c go nowhere w|o people doing it.
As I say; I feel all these things increase all the time that I grow in confidence.
Could it be that I am better narcissistic supply the whole time that I am improving my self esteem; and they throw more and more rude behaviours at me to garner it.
So, w the business, I have to wait to find out whether there is money in it. The metrics of the campaign w tell me that. It’s rly just how many ads I can post. The algorithm w limit my ads being shown, tho I don’t know how much.
It w quite a thrill, not letting people get narcissistic supply from me. I kept everyone at bay for the entire time, until I got home; just not letting their attempts into my mind.
Could they rly be trying to devalue me, could this rly be what is going on; bc like I say, when they do it they leave me feeling belittled.
To Not Letting People Devalue Me
K
Miss K 