Hey

I’m typing this on my phone.

I w thinking about the fact that I don’t get on w anyone.  For the longest time, I thought that it was like a defect w|i me, that I just wasn’t good enough for anyone.

Then, I w in Waterville Village; and it kinda hit me.  All the people were old people, and I just felt that they were kinda solidly w|i that age group, and I too young for them.

It’s more about my opinions.  Like, I look at all these people, and I see that they w be on the side of the ruling class, against like Palestine.

I honestly think that I have just reduced my mental viewpoint, by following J’s commandments, reduced my mental age.

It’s J commandments that are meaning that I don’t fit in w anyone.  No one shares my state of mind.  I’ve kinda evolved away from them wanting to have anything to do w me.

This put it in a positive light, that I’m struggling to connect w anyone, that any friendship just looks superficial.

I kinda feel a bit of a fool for ever thinking it w a problem.

I thought this unlikely, bc I thought that I judged people as much as anyone, tho clearly I don’t.  I’m still insecure af tho, about how much I judge people.  I still think I judged them a lot.

And it got me to thinking; like, I don’t have a problem where I live.  These well to do people are only slightly more appealing than my chav neighbors.

And I thought, where do I want to live, and just kept w a place in the city centre, Fletton Quays.

I honestly think that I am young; that fw J’s commandments, has actually altered my DNA, so that I am able to just feel these vibes.  I just don’t feel old.

I have to accept that J’s commandments are working, it’s clear as day; and that, should I continue them, they may even relieve my arthritis.

And I realized this, chilling outside the bicycle shop.

I w trying to get through to PureElectric.  Half an hour on the chat, and nobody w answering.

I think what’s happened is that, once I’ve left the chat, it feels like they don’t give a f, about getting back to me; so I need to wait until the chat has gone and try again, when I have the time to wait, bc there is no way of resetting the chat, and email is useless, I feel I get fobbed off.

This is the whole process of registering my vehicle.  It is the most important part, as there is no way of doing it w|o the certificate of conformity.  It rly does deserve for the most effort, to be put into acquiring it, as it is the most important part of the application.

Could this be the rule of thumb in all things, that the most difficult thing, is the most important.  The rest of it can’t be done w|o it.

I intend the difficult challenge of registering a personal light electric vehicle for use on the public highways; then after that is a possibly, even more difficult challenge of insuring.  I w have to ring the company, and have a verbal agreement, that insurance would be honoured on public highways.

This is an exciting challenge, and floats my boat like f’ery McCluckery.  My authenticity just sings, in the depths of my heart, over, being the first in the UK, to do this.  I’d rly deserve to be on the news if it all pans out.  Everyone gets their fifteen minutes of fame.

Idek why the hire ones are legal and the privately owned ones are not.  I assume that it’s bc they can’t be insured.  That is what a police officer told me.

If that were the case, they w only be too happy to have me on the road.

It dates back to a law, that says a cart, can’t be on the pavement.  Other countries may have the exact same law, and just ignored it, Idk.  I just feel it’s relevant.

Maybe they feel they w be breaking the law, should they allow them.  Tho, there is a law, that says, a taxi must have a bail of hay in the trunk, tho, obviously, no one could ever be convicted of that.

Tho, my heart sings for this challenge.  It is my utmost authenticity, to make all this happen.

I have a business, and have moved heaven and earth to get myself in a position, where, I could run ads that might mean commissions.  I am addicted to challenges, w is often the case w employment.  I get off on this sh’, and w fully, get my rocks off, getting after it.

This kinda sh’, is w makes me feel alive.  I don’t even think I’m against anyone, for attempting this; tho, like Yoda says, do not try, do.

To Trying Authentic Sh’

Kirsty