I am down Ferry Meadows again; and I’m wondering whether Ima come down here every day. Maybe I could get like a week’s ticket from the bus company that runs it.
I’ve got to wait half an hour before having my Coke Zero. I have cut down to three caffeine’s a day.
I had a nice rest on my bed, before heading out.
I thought I had to leave right away for the bus, and actually it w an hour before I needed to go. I tidied my room a bit and then chillaxed. My washing w done in the machine tho I just wanted to chill.
The business is rly exciting me. This is bc I have chosen to not worry about it today; indeed, not worry about anything; and that has given me a good feeling of self esteem for it.
In Other News
I think I am feeling other peoples’ feelings. I have a feeling that makes me anxious and I think it is coming from me, when in actual fact, I feel it is coming from someone else.
I had this at Uni. I thought about sharpening my axe, and that’s exactly what the girl in front of me said. Also I thought about Nescafe and how they check the beans down in Columbia and say it’s primo, just like they’re talking about a hard drug. They guys to my right said, did you hear what he said about Nescafe. There w another one too tho it’s inappropriate to say here.
I had it again when I w walking around after feeling upset, like they didn’t want me at uni. I had the words, get out of town, and then one of the Dr’s of Chemistry said exactly that, get out of town.
I think this is happening w my feelings, that I am feeling what other people are feeling; kinda like when I thought what they were thinking.
It doesn’t rly mean anything, Ima still not judge what they are feeling. It’s kinda confusing and Idk what it means.
I w at Pétanque, and I w just paying attention to what everyone w feeling, tho, then I started to judge; so it’s important for me to not feel my feeling too much as it leads to judgement, even tho it feels amazing to be feeling everyones’ feelings.
I also found that I did not get upset when I w feeling everyones’ feelings, and that I w able to follow the conversation; and when I stopped, that’s when I lost it.
Like I say, it’s super confusing, and Idk what it means, and like I say, it doesn’t mean anything as I won’t choose to judge people.
I kinda felt like a pop star this morning walking here; w my shades on. It’s an energy and it feels good. I like it, tho don’t read anything into it, it’s just a feeling. Maybe it means I’m close in my energy to a pop star, Idk.
I’m still trying to save money. I need a few extra quid for my ads.
I had the theory that should I go for a campaign that has hundreds of thousands of people searching that keyword every month, then.. and I w work hard to make it work and then I w be able to make a lot of money out of it and it w be worth the effort.
I rly liked this bc it meant working w my present company until I made it bc many entrepreneurs say to stay in my lane and just try and make w I am working on rn work and not shift onto other things.
To Feeling Like A Pop Star
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