I had a wasp that w buzzing around me for ages and I couldn’t get rid of it; so I let it go in my Coke bottle, and it had the fright on it’s life and buggered off tout suite.
Symbolising my escape from negativity and worry, when I had a self esteem malfunction this morning and all the day till a minute ago. It ended w just feeling confident about the business and I had escaped.
I also wondered about being a character; playing a person who is super successful.
It’s a bit like ASMR, when the person is a Doctor, except I am playing someone, like I say, who is successful.
Ima read the book I have on Google Ads. It w tell me how to get good value from my ads. That w be what allows me to make profit, Idk.
It’s raining. I’m typing this in the rain on my phone and keyboard.
It’s kinda like imposter syndrome, except I’m not that person in the first place.
Actually, that hits the nail on the head directly. I feel like who the hell so I think I am being this person. Am I this person?
I don’t judge others, so why the hell am I judging myself. It’s just not allowed according to J. It’s such a lovely feeling tho.
I saw this girl who w wearing joggers and sweatshirt. She looked a million dollars, and I realised at that point, that I don’t need to wear expensive clothes to feel like a worthy person, tho like I say, I’m playing this character.
It says in the Bible to not worry about clothes; probably bc it doesn’t matter w someone wear, it matters who they are on the inside.
SideNote
Phones still work when soaking wet. I’m worried tho that my keyboard w give up tho.
That’s the best thing about having a self esteem malfunction, is the rush that comes when reality starts to creep back in. G k it’s been days since this has happened to me.
The wasp came back tho I think it doesn’t want to fw me anymore.
So, what I’ll do is probably pause the Google Ads account, and read the book. I don’t want to waste my ad budget.
I w all about running the offer bc Ik that it w the only way to ensure that I get somewhere w my business; tho it just is foolhardy to do it when I c run it better after reading the book.
I must get going soon bc I need to be back on the bus and don’t want to be waiting an hour in the rain.
Hopefully I can continue playing this character, fake it till you make it; and my self esteem w be rly good.
A Little Later
I got some hash browns on the way home. Morrison’s freezers are broken, so I get my hash browns on the way back from town.
I have croquet tomorrow, bc I didn’t go on Wed. I have to commit to two afternoons a week
To Self Esteem
K
Miss K 