Hey

My keyboard packed up bc of the rain I w typing in yesterday; so, I’m using my old Apple one from my dead Mac Mini

I just went for a walk down Gunthorpe.  It’s early in the morning; and I wanted to get out bc I can’t go to Ferry Meadows bc I’ve got croquet this afternoon and all the walking w mean that I wouldn’t be able to walk back.

I’ll be going to the shop in about two hours, and then maybe another walk.

I should for the business, be able to get a cheaper cost of my ads.  I hope this means that there is profitability in the ad campaign.

It’s all about having faith in the book; bc it says that a reviewer found that their ads got like fifty percent cheaper after reading the book; and another reviewer said this also.

I w look up cpc (cost per click) in the book, and hopefully learn how to make this saving, rather than read the whole book.  I just want to get the ads running.

I don’t rly think that my self esteem is linked to the business anymore.  I w kinda thinking that it w be the smart choice to not be rich, and do like a customer service job and just work eight hours and then get out, yk.

It w bc the co founder of Netflix said that a person in their twenties has to work hella to get ahead so that they don’t have to when they are like forty.

I found this horrific and w never want to be flogging myself so much that I have no quality of life.  Life is about living, not working; family friends, good times; to not have got to forty and realised they haven’t had a life.

So I figured it much better to just work eight hours, and hopefully get promoted at some point.  Idk what this search for money is all about, I concluded that’s not me.

Everyone is free to choose the life they want, then from that, we find out who they are as a person.  I want to do amazing things in my life, inventing stuff so need capital to realise that.

It suits me having a lot of time on my hands, I like going to clubs, and being free to do the things I wanna do.  Tbh, there are not enough hours in the day as it is.

I’m not doing any reading of my book today, bc it is Sunday, the sabbath, and J forbids work on a Sunday.  I have kept to this commandments for a while now.

On Monday I aim to have a read.  I’m keen to figure out how to lower the price of my ads.  I suppose I just take one day at a time and just k that soon I w have that knowledge.

I w thinking about London, Elephant Park.  I kinda had gone off the idea, bc of being concerned that I may feel unsafe in London; tho I saw an interview w Dua Lipa, and she says that she goes for walks and that they have nice parks and stuff to go, so I’m kinda thinking that it w be no more unsafe than where I live atm.

It’s still up in the air tho, whether I want to move.

I realise I w be a different person.  I feel that people from Peterborough don’t do well in London.  I feel that they lack self esteem there bc they don’t see themselves that way; and conversely I feel that people from London don’t like Peterborough.

I realise that it involves changing myself so that I see myself as that kind of person.  I am unable to do that while I am here bc I feel that people here don’t like people like that and that is why I say that people from London don’t like it here.

I w have to not see myself that way and just move one day and turn into that person when I am there, tho like I say, it w mean that I can’t come back.  They don’t fit in here.

To Choosing Who One Wants To Be

K