Hey

It’s me coming atcha.

So I wanna talk about positive and negative motivations; and that in terms of energy is better to choose the former.

Example

Getting out of this town.  Strong motivation tho negative

Getting the new AlphaFly 3.  Nasty af trainers, kill me now.

In terms of energy; the first is a boost of self esteem energy and the second is a vampire of energy.

I’m taking a week off of the business.  I need to feel my energy for a minute.  That’s the work that I w be doing.

I’ve done this kind of energy work before.  Once I took a whole day out to just feel the vibe of good energy.  This w very important work to be doing and w the highest priority of anything I had on my list.  Energy comes first.

And that’s why taking time out is rly important rn.  Energy comes first.  It is energy that fuels my whole decent into chaos.  No, seriously, it is a decent into chaos w|o working on energy.

I need to centre myself and climb out of chaos, and stress and feel that good energy, clean energy break free of all challenges and just be.

It is the way to win, the way to just laugh in the face of anything that goes against the highest energy, to rly be there, in flow for a while.

I’ve realised the harm of worrying.  It is very toxic; and I need to take my time w this next stage and deal w it out of the right mindset.

I need my trainers so Ima look nasty af, so, I literally have that as my motivation for doing this, for running the offer and being a crazy bi’ and just flying by the seat of my pants, and hoping.

I get beerzies tomorrow, so that w be nice.

I’m waiting for the cravings.  When I reduce my medication, things go a little bit sideways w me wanting any drug Ima get my hands on.

It’s black box sh’ and it f my sh’ up when I can’t have my dose of it.  So far things have been alright tho.

I think I’m hooked on AlphaFly; I may have a problem.

I’ve already experienced that I have lost interest in the things I love; and I think it’s bc I’m chatting away in my head like a crazy bi’ when I’m watching them.

I had literally to force myself to shut the hell up and concentrate; and I made it through to the end of the video.

It’s me becoming ill, I’ll be honest.  That is what happens when I take less.

I have been judging a lot and that is illness in another way also.  Just hope that things settle down.

In my energy, I’m the craziest mf who ever lived; and I need to hold onto that bc it is fuelling everything rn.  The real sh’.  The real sh’ that makes me feel alive and my motivation for doing everything.

I’m the craziest, no one else comes close.

K