Hey

Today I have a beer, w w be nice.

I think I’m handling when people say sh that seems like it’s about me, a little bit better.

I realize that whenever I say sh about people, I’m actually saying sh about myself.

Bc I’ll find myself, when triggered just devaluing myself.  And then I realized that it w bc I talk sh about people, and that w just getting pointed at me and that w w I w triggered.

I did a little bit of work this morning, tho I realized that it w going nowhere.

I feel like I wanna do something, tho there is no point bc it is better to do nothing than to waste my time.  That way I actually am doing something.

I told my n’as that I had cut my foot yesterday and they were so nice to me it meant a lot.

I just wanna be w them tho I’m unable to today; tho tomorrow Ima be w them.

I’ve managed to save some money this month by not buying anything, and I’m happy w the way it has gone.  Next month I w be able to buy some things.

Tho, I just don’t know what is the point of buying things, like what for.  It’s out of some kind of need that I have w|i that makes me wanna spend.  There’s rly no need; w is good, bc Ima save the money and put it on Google Ads.

I need to get some bolts for my bed, one of them has broken.  They were super cheap and are just not strong enough, that’s why I want to get some more.  I w go in the bed shop and buy quality ones.

I’m trying to make sure that I don’t have a relapse.  I’m being super careful about w I do w my time, that it is not too stressful.  I feel this is a time that I must be careful bc of reducing my medication.

Like I said before, the thing I need to do is not worry and not judge, bc that is w I did when I w rly ill and it meant that I got better, so I need to make sure that I do that again, it definitely works.

I think I’m handling w people say, bc of being on less medication.  Medication is the absolute worst for causing triggers.

It’s good to be off it.  That means less side effects.  One of them is not being able to feel my feelings w sucked super bad and now I feel real in myself.  I went down to Ferry Meadows and had real feelings yesterday and it w so much better.

I want to do more of the same.  I want to do more things that give me the opportunity to feel my feelings.

I’ve noticed that people in this town are verbally abusive, I think.  They seem to be predominately people who swear a lot.  The people I fw mostly are people who are more reserved.

I feel w this Google Ads, Ima be the only one who becomes an expert in how to place ads in front of competitors.  This is my mission.  I aim to teach myself how to do this through trial and error.

I’ve got through my work super fast as it has only been two months since I have posted the first ads for my merchant.  It seems that the slower I do it and the more I stay super chill in flow, the more I get done, it’s crazy.

So I aim to take my time and not waste it getting stressed out.  When I’m hammering away trying to learn stuff I’m getting nowhere.  It’s much faster to be chill and let the inspiration just come and take me wherever it goes.

That way also it is super fun.  I’m enjoying the hunt; stalking my prey and figuring out ways to snag a campaign.  I w succeed in the end.

To Staying In Flow

K