Hey

I’ve just had a cafetière coffee.  The buzz is super nice.  It’s about three or four in the morning.

I’m thinking about the difference between adults and kids, and I feel that it is that kids don’t judge.

Contemporary psychology says for me to feel all my feelings, and to judge people.  I don’t want to do this.  I feel it w make me old.

And judgement is horrible anyways.  It causes so much anxiety.  In fact, I feel that it is the cause of all anxiety.

I have knit and natter tomorrow.  I need to get my prescription on the way back, if I can.  I have an appointment w the girl from my housing association when I get back.

I have done well brushing my teeth twice a day tho it has made no difference to my teeth.  I’m still getting pain in my back tooth.  I think this is bc the bad bacteria can get in when the good ones are cleaned out the way.

It’s so nice, the feeling of clean teeth.  I am super lucky bc my toothbrush removes all the scale and I never need descaling.  This means that my teeth feel absolutely squeaky, and like I say, it is rly nice.

Idk about lowering my medication.  I think I became a little ill yesterday.  I just have to take each day at a time and rly be strong when it comes to not judging people.  I feel that is the real danger that c make me ill.  I w judging people, kinda

My coffee is Columbian and it tastes super nice.  I like to have a big cup.

I have done super well this month on saving money on shopping; saving money in general.  I have made up the shortfall from when I spent too much a couple of months ago.  I figure I w need all my money for spending on ads.

Google Ads Help Community said that I w never make money putting ads in front of competitors tho I just feel that they are gaslighting me.

The thing about people who suffer empathy problems is that they w tell me that w I am saying is wrong, regardless of whether it is actually wrong or not; and I feel that the Google Ads people have an empathy problem.

This just means that I can’t trust w they say in the slightest, when it comes to them telling me that I am wrong about something.

I w thinking that Rachael Riley got told not to do Higher Maths bc it w way too hard, and she didn’t listen and w super glad that she didn’t.

I need to wait until Ik that I am coping w the medication change, before I take on anything stressful.  This is hard for me bc there are things I wanna do.  Idek how long it w take.  I suppose that I just wait until I stop having days like these.

Judging people is a clear indicator that things are not right and I c wait until I stop judging people, this w be a good way to k that I am okay.  I want to take on more, I think.  Idk whether that w the illness talking as it can be a sign of relapse for me that I am thinking something like that.

I suppose I w need Google Ads money in the scenario that my campaign actually works and that I need to keep it running.

I have done well cutting down on what I am eating and have lost a lot of weight; tho it is important sometimes to have a snack when I start thinking f up thoughts.  I carry some biscuits around w me.

To Columbian Coffee

K