Hey

It’s about four in the morning.  I’ve had another coffee.

It got to about seven o’clock yesterday, and I didn’t want my second coffee.  I w already buzzing enough.

I’m trying to not have nicotine.  It w push my buzz over.

I had knit and natter, yesterday.  It w great.  It felt like such a warm group and I felt so at home.

I laughed at some dog videos.  They were literally fainting when having their nails clipped.

Like I said, I’m trying my best not to judge, as I feel this w be the most dangerous thing for me rn.

I haven’t experienced this feeling when I wake up gasping, that I get when I’m having a relapse, so I must be okay.

I missed my appointment for helping me tidy up.  She had sent a messed up text that sent the wrong message.

I thought someone had been super rude to me on the bus; and then when I got off later on, he said that I w gorgeous.

It’s great when someone says something and then a few minutes later there is evidence that they meant something else by it.  It just means hanging in there until the proof comes.

I have to do some shopping today, as I am running out of everything.  I’m lucky that I don’t have anything this morning, so can go to the shop.

I have found that I am able to walk to Town in half an hour w is super nice, bc I used to start out for the bus stop twenty minutes before, and now I get to town in little over that time.  It feels like a short walk as well.

The fastest I have ever done it in w twenty minutes.  Idek how I walked that fast.

I get to have a beer tomorrow.  I w go down the pub.

I have lost one club a week due to the people running it being on holiday, I think, so I need to attend my croquet three times a week.

I need to be around people as much as possible.  I had missed out on three clubs over the weekend, and I w feeling it.  I must commit to doing as much as possible for my mental health, especially during this time of reduced medication.

The thing that improved my mental health to the point that I reduced my medication w that I attended a lot of clubs, so I need to keep doing that to make sure that I am safe in my mental health.  It also caused my last relapse.

I managed to pick up my medication yesterday, w w great; in time to attend my appointment.  I had plenty of time and had something to eat, bc I w starving.  I had missed going to get a sandwich so that I w be back on time.

I need to brush my teeth.  I’m doing it twice a day atm.

To Keeping Myself Healthy Socially

K