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I w thinking about my Google Ads; that what they have told me w be the price of my ads, may have been totally wrong.  They may have warned me off and exaggerated a bit.  They said that my ads w cost me ten times as much, tho they may actually only cost me double.

The thing I have to watch out for is still judgement.  I judged yesterday.

I have to understand that I have an illness and the only way to cure it is to not judge.  If I want to be totally sane, then I must not judge.

Then the judgement w go away and it w never even be tempting to do it anymore.

I have to love my neighbour as myself also.

J says to love your neighbour as yourself.  The funny thing is that people are always gonna love their neighbour as themselves, bc if they don’t love their neighbour, they are not going to love themselves either.

I realised like a week or two ago, that if I ever judge anyone, then who I am actually judging is myself; and that I w never want to experience that.

I still judged tho, it’s hard not to.  It kinda crept in the back door.  I didn’t judge at the time, tho I did later.

I w thinking about how they treated the prophets in millennia ago, they killed them, and w happened to me.  I do suppose that means I’m blessed, just like they say.

And I w thinking that J called out the people whose ancestors killed them, and it just hit me like they killed them.  People like me, they killed them.  Then I thought that I got off lightly.

It feels so good to not judge.  I felt this on Wednesday.  I felt like there w no judgement in me, and it w so amazing.  It felt like true reality where I felt sane af.

I think that kids, when they are teenagers, just start to judge; and then it grows and this is w makes them lose it and get depressed when they are in their twenties; and that it happens to all of us.

It made me think how close we are rn to living for like way older than one hundred years.  It’s probably just a tiny like tweak to.. we just need a little push to make our cells do that.

This is bc generally people don’t judge.  It has gotten into our society so much that mostly people don’t judge, and they just need to judge a little bit less, that is all it w take.  Like we are so close and just need a little push.

I think about the Curcumin that I take, and that it c actually be enough to trigger that change if I don’t judge anyone; and the ginger, and the Alpha Ketoglutarate.

If it only takes a little to get us there, then not judging c do it.

I just take it one day at a time and try to not judge as much as possible.  It’s a challenge when people seem to be treating me bad, tho I remember when I w a kid and how I felt about everyone.

I feel my mom was abusing me, and I had nothing but acceptance for her, and unconditional love.  That is w I need for everyone.

I also think that the anti ageing pill won’t work if people judge majorly.  And that w be such a shame if they still died.  And like it w be on the news that it’s not working on some people, and they w be saying that it w bc they were just too old, and no one w k why it w happening.

To Not Judging

K