Hey

It’s midnight, I’m getting up.

I’ve had an epiphany.  It’s rly to not think.

It happened to me a few years ago; where thought w happening kinda beneath thought.  Like the thought is happening w|o words in my head.

I keep all thought out of my head.  I never used to worry about anything.  It’s like I’m starting to remember that I never used to worry about anything.

I also had another epiphany.  How I feel is my responsibility; and has nothing to do w how the people are around me.

Like, say I’m in a crowd, and something happens and I’m struggling w my mood; and I say to myself, well it’s bc of how they are.  Well, it’s the same crowd I w in a minute ago, when I didn’t have a problem.

People are always gonna be people, and if I feel like they are doing something, then it means that there is something going on w|i me.

Posers still bother me tho.

I also had to can the bitchin’.  I think that when I’m at croquet, that w be the number one way on how to win a game; when everyone else is bitchin, and I’m not.  I place a high significance on mindset.  It w be hard to pull off, tho so is winning a game.  Might as well put the effort in where it counts.

I found this w bowling as well.  I w call it the bad luck fairy.  I found that if I dodge the bad luck fairy, then she w just land on somebody else; the negativity needs somewhere to go.  So I’ll just let them be negative instead.

Nobody needs that feeling.

I feel that I have many many Neurons in my brain.  I am getting towards the teenager end of the scale when it comes to the amount of Neurons in my brain.  Ik this bc my reality is changing.  I am being able to handle more; and I am feeling a part of reality more also.

I had this feeling when my head felt like it w small.  Have any girls had this feeling.  It w the best feeling in the world.

I w sitting on the grass, eating my Quavers and Walkers.  I had just managed to keep my head on after feeling a challenge to my mood.  All the people walking around me, and I dodged being paranoid that they felt I w some kind of idiot or something, or low in social value or w t f.

And I got to the shop.  I looked to see if they had a sandwich, w they didn’t so I bought the crisps.  After I had been served, trying to be as dope as possible, I got outside and then I had this feeling, out of nowhere.

I had never had it before.  It lifted me up.

People say that you have to feel bad sometimes to feel good.  I just wanna feel good all the time.

It’s kinda like.. people who have been challenged in some way, tend to excel in that area.  Like homeless people who end up millionaires, or Jim Quick, who got brain damage, and ended up the best memory.

In Other News

Is it possible to run a business, w|o ever worrying.  My energy tells me, yes.  In fact, I feel that from presence, come the best choices.

I feel that it is worry that deters people from doing anything.  They’re too scared, so they’d rather play it safe.  W|o worry, all those fears just aren’t there; so it’s good motivation for getting out of the comfort zone.

It means freedom; freedom to do all the things that a person wants to do; so authenticity can rly flourish.

To Dreams

K