Hey

I’m at home.  I won’t have enough time down Ferry Meadows to write.  I’ve got half an hour, before I must leave.

Croquet is in the afternoon, and I’ve brought a sandwich to keep me going; and some biscuits.

I’ve got to get a ton of shopping, so I’ve brought my big bag.

I never got to go on Fri, so I’m feeling a bit lonely; so looking forward to later on; then it’s bowling on Mon.

The washing machine w empty, and I’ll put my trainers in before I go.  It’s a nice little chunk of time that Ima make us of.

I seem to be hella busy; every day.  I didn’t even have time to catch the earlier bus.  I w up late, and also got up a little late, and just missed the opportunity.

I’ve been sleeping super well lately, and that usually spells a night of less sleep.

The coffee I’m drinking is working super well.  I get a lot of sleep.  I’m excited to be starting work.  I used to do part time work, washing up for school dinners, w w great.  I also worked at a kitchen for a sheltered housing accommodation scheme.

There w also cleaning a school w w good.  It w easy work, not like most cleaning jobs, where they have zero respect for the employees and push them so hard it’s physical abuse.

In Other News

I had a major realization.  Abuse won’t stop me from having twice the Neurons and be in full reality.

I feel I came from an abusive situation, very much so; and I still had twice the Neurons, and w in that reality, albeit dissociated af, and literally traumatized every day.

So, it’s right to not be too concerned w persecution.  Yes it may been seen as abuse, tho, it won’t stop this process that I’m going through.

I used to be so angry at abuse, bc I felt that it c stop me from ageing backwards.  I felt resentful af; there is no need for that.  I’m still full on w jumping for joy when persecution hits.

I wondered if it w like something metaphysical, tho Idk if they are even doing anything bad.  I just don’t like it.  It w follow something like when people do something bad to me, they suffer the karma and G’s sense of humor is to just level me up a bit every time; tho like I say, Idk

I’ll have to wrap this up, bc I’m leaving at half past.

Persecution w hard af yesterday.  I w ill and that c have been why I w so f up; trying not to worry and judge; just thinking that if I continue to keep the commandments, I w not be touched by the damnation

Tho, come to think of it, it’s not damnation, it’s rather the other way around.  I need to get that through my head that it is doing me crazy amounts of good; and still not judge and worry, bc Ima always follow those commandments.

I’ll finish this off at the lake Bye

I’m back; just opening my Coke.  I’m timing everything so I get to croquet.  I must have my sandwich in a minute.  I’ll buy another one when I get to Town.

Still believe in the anti aging.  I suppose it’s a matter of faith; and what I see when I look in the f mirror.

I made my bracelet.  I w looking for the ribbon, and rly wanted to find it.  I just left it and chilled out, and it w in the other box.  There are also super cool necklaces as well.

I w looking for the exact thing, tho at Claires they don’t have what I want.  They’re mostly just steel chain, w I don’t like.  I w looking for beads rly.

I saw a Volkswagen 1969 bus.  It w following us down the road and w there when I got off.  I rly love the twinky off of Outer Banks.

To Youth

K