Hey

I believe that following J’s commandments, w unlock anti aging genes in my body.

It happened when I w watching The Order.  Something didn’t appear to make sense.  Like this scientist girl, got herself killed, and my adult mind said, well that’s wrong, bc she got herself munched by the werwolf.  Then I instantly let it go, just like I let it go, when they were munching all the people who were trying to harm their teacher.

I realized in that moment, that not judging had allowed me to appreciate the show how it w intended, making me young by proxy; the whole time I had been following, that is w they had been doing, and that is why I love these programs so much.  It w working.

That is why it gave me so much pleasure to watch them.  Bc I w able to watch them bc J commandments had made me younger by proxy.  That’s hella validation; and I’m absolutely astounded.

J commandments, say that you w be agitated, and then astounded, and then w be king of the all.  Well I’ve reached agitation the second I started following them; and now I’m astounded, so I should in the future be king of the all.

Therefore I believe in their ability to halt the aging process.  Say my mind w absolutely in that teenage reality.  Would not my body follow; is it not already.

Like I say I look in the mirror and see someone just young, it’s the only way to describe it.  I feel totally shocked rn.

I thought that not judging w wreck my reality and make me dumb.  It has actually opened up the reality I had when I w younger, when I felt totally sane.

Also, things have moved on since I w younger.  Kids are actually saner, and judge less.  That’s a tragic thing about trying to not be demented.  Every year that goes by, it gets harder, bc kids don’t even rly think nowadays.

Technology moves on, and older people are just getting left way behind and it gets too hard to catch up.

That’s why it took me five years to get to where I am.  I w so demented that there w so much damage w|i my soul that I just needed like major healing.

I w be so hurt that I c not just get better overnight.  Nope; I wasn’t ready to accept how ill I w.  Who w be ready to accept that they are majorly demented.  I just wasn’t ready to accept that.

This girl walked past me, and said, well on.  This other girl said, off, they’re all old.  I get where they are coming from; and it freaks me the f out.

Like it freaks me out that J commandments c actually be a real thing.  Like I’m scared of being closer to G; tho the only thing that w happen, is me just feeling like and being a kid again.

No.. that’s not right.  I w k the power of J’s commandments.  I w k where these commandments come from; they come from G.  It’s something that just is a lot, yk.  And it’s right here, you heard it here first.

I’m kinda quivering in my boots rn, aware of w I am writing.  I love G bc she made me young again, I w say; in fact, I feel she already has.

Do I have to accept there is damage in my soul.  Do I have to wait longer for me to get there; probably.  Tho Ik that every time I get persecuted it pushes me forward, towards my goal.  I’m excited thinking about it.

I do indeed get another shot at life.  I feel that I had my life taken from me by abuse.  I wanted to be young bc I felt that my youth w stolen; tho isn’t youth stolen from every kid in their twenties.  It happens to all of us; adults thinking, see I told you, my reality is the correct one, isn’t it, when their kids go through this change, I feel.  Idk.

Youth is only there for a brief time, and then it is stolen.  I’m here to give it back.

To Being Given Youth Back

K