It’s midnight. I’ve had one hour sleep. I’m having my coffee
I’m starting to calm down, now my neighbors have cooled it off a bit. Worrying and judging were starting to take over my mind, over the last four days. It’s nice to be a bit more relaxed.
I’m scared w the judge might say when I am in front of him over my TV license. I have to ask him if he w make an exception w me. I must not worry about it, as I have been worrying bc of how stressed I have been the last few days.
I trust him. I trust that he w be fair. I trust that he w weigh w I say, and may even surprise me. I have to ring them up and ask w to do in this situation.
The police totally surprised me today. They saw me. They even thanked me for calling them. I’m no longer scared of them, and have made a mental note, to listen to w they say and figure out w it means. It may sound crazy or nonsense tho it w mean something; important.
My mind is slowly settling down. It w give me good opportunity to follow J’s commandments, and feel good for being a good girl. I like it when I am not too dissociated to do w J asks.
I did good. I sent round the law, to help them calm down; before it took a nasty turn, like it always does, and it worked. I won. I’m rly happy w the result, for me and them.
I think at one point she grabbed something sharp. I got straight on 999, and they shot round. I met the guy when he got out his car, nearly being hijacked by my neighbors who wanted help w something. I warned the officer going in.
they said there w nothing laying about, tho it didn’t feel right to me. These altercations get super nasty.
All I want is to not worry and not judge, I don’t even want money or status. It is my goal, my priority.
J says, a man can’t ride two horses or draw two bows. It’s true. It matters to me more than anything.
I mean, he also says to be wealthy so’s to make friends for myself so that I w have a place in heaven. Tho his opinions are clear on the rich.
I may have to be one day tho; if my inventions make crazy dough. Authenticity chooses my life, not me; and I follow. I am helpless under or in its influence. It has real power; over me. This path is definitely an interesting one.
I never foresaw myself getting better. I just thought that if I found an income that I c manage it w be enough. G has healed me; with just words; words that I put into practice; they healed my mind, washed away the toxic mental behaviors, that made me ill.
I am absolutely in awe at the power of these words. The very fabric of my being has changed. I am not who I was. I always wanted to be this person, now I am. J gave me the tools. Do I call it a miracle. It’s a grey area.
My authenticity is telling me that this is who I need to be. It draws me to itself w great power. It’s a good fit. Ima fight for my right to be me; and the paradox is that it is out of humility that I humbly ask to be this person.
G k what I need before I need it. I w like to see if I get the things that I need. Tbh I have all that I need. People seem to give freely, when I ask for help. I trust them.
People are the gateway through w needs are met. W|o judging, it is possible to see them as they are, as benevolent, not malevolent. W|o worrying, those fears of them being mean, just aren’t there. The world becomes a kinder place
That w w this w all about, changing my external world, through changing the internal. I have made good progress on that.
To Changing The Way We See The World
K
Miss K 