Hey

I feel that phones are super triggering.  They always harass me w notifications, and I feel bullied.

I just had one come up about me using location.  This happened one time on the bus when I was trying to get my ticket out.  There w no way to get rid of it and I got angry.

I feel that the people who program these devices have an empathy impairment.

I went to my library, to print off a return label.  She said I had to use a computer.  I said I felt sick bc they were all infected.  She allowed me to email her so that she c print it off.

There is no joke around having an email hacked.  Everything, all accounts run through email.  Do you feel me.  It w mean being locked out of everything.  I feel it c cause schizophrenia should that happen to someone.

This is w I don’t like about society.  It’s rly a bit of an oaf.  Hell, it’s a major oaf, that destroys peoples’ lives.

I have been doing better at not worrying.  I have rly been on an anxiety trip over the last few days.  I wonder if it w my neighbors being so vicious w each other that caused it, and I w dissociated.

And yet I still have faith in life; tho Ima go to my support service, and just ask them if they can help me if things go sideways.

She said to me that there is a lot of help that I’m not getting, and if I need anything, to just ask.  So I w; bc, if I get a job that doesn’t last more than a few days, it’s gonna eat up all my savings, bc in this country, it w be three weeks before Ima get support again.

It’s scary, tho it’s something that I want to do.

I’ve heard that one in eight young people are not working or learning.  I feel that this is bc they just don’t feel supported should they do that, bc of the above reason.  I feel that they feel scared.  Hell, I do.

Like I say, I feel that educated people have an empathy impairment; and it’s a bit ends justify the means reasoning on that one.

The thought of people falling through the cracks, rly frightens me.  It’s so indiscriminant.

A lot of people also have what’s called insecure attachment; w means they don’t feel that anyone has got them in the first place.  They’re not gonna trust, and they’d be right.

My heart hurts, thinking how people can be ignored, until they just don’t exist anymore; neglected out of existence; cared about so little that they kinda evaporate w|o leaving a trace.

Their only crime w thinking that the system has not got them, and look how it played out.

It’s like the story of Lazarus, who w a beggar at the gate of a rich man.  Lazarus went to heaven tho the rich man went to hell.

All people w be punished for neglect.  It’s comforting to k.

That’s G.  She just allows people to be evil, feeling that they can get away w it; and then they get a nasty shock when they leave this life.

They have chosen their path and it’s a bed they must lie in.

I feel that both J and Krsna offer, together the full play for getting to heaven.  Tho I don’t feel like telling people things they don’t deserve to k

J says, woe to those who are spoken well of.  These are the ones who seem to be doing the damage in society.  I suppose that they feel that some people don’t deserve a chance.  Who are they to choose.

This rly explains the mind boggling value of not judging.  Like I used to think, how can that possibly make a person righteous and w is righteousness.  Like how can someone be like in the right w G.

I looked on in wonder, wondering w righteous w and w it looked like.  I w completely clueless, now Ik.

To Righteousness

K