Hey

I just had a crazy experience.

So, it started w me getting some ink on my shoe.  Then I w sitting on the bus and feeling that this is how it w always be.

I feel like people see me as some kind of billionaire, and that w never change; so I may as well just step into that role.

I feel that where someone ends up in life is where people put that person.  I’ll flip that switch like Mabel says, and just let them put me there.

It involves my reaction to people.  I w kinda being resting bi’ face like all the time, feeling like they wanted something from me.  I feel it’s more that they want something for me.

I’d kinda get wound up; just the effort of just feeling like I w warding people off all the time.  I suppose it’s just like fate, and accepting it.

I have lived with insanely low self esteem all my life and is probably why I couldn’t deal w it.

This also goes for the person w w ring me up w part time work.  He w want to give me something that he w like to see me in, and I must allow.  I suppose it’s kinda a social cue and being aware of it

It kinda made me feel disappointed that things w never change, and this is how I w always feel around people.  I guess it’s my path and there is no changing that.

Like I say, I have a couple of things that I w like to create.  I must do it for the betterment of the planet.  The good news is that people seem to wanna see me do it.  It’s rly up to them whether this happens or not.

I guess this is the only way to see that, real, so, so be it.

The good news is that whatever job I am offered Ik that Ima do it.  W them behind me it is just not even gonna be an issue.

In Other News

I w thinking about the people Ik when I w young.  They were such dope people.  Idek how I met them.  They must have just spoke to me one time and that is how it happened.

Things are gonna be super dope.  Medication is getting reduced in two months.  Again, I just have to allow.  G I love that f word.

G is trying to give me all the sh that I want.  And now I’m in a position where Ima just accept the f ton of dope ass energy coming my way.

I suppose that’s the point of being humble, discovering w life has to offer.

I also, one hundo believe in like turning younger.  Not just like feeling sane af in my ancient ass age, tho actually being young.

The body has the ability to reverse age.  They have taken a mouse that w on a f zimmer frame, and they have made it live, get this, one hundred and ten percent longer.

I feel that psychology can trigger that.  F it, maybe the people around me can make that happen by wishing it for me.  We are all connected.  The people around a n’a have a say in w their mental health w be, w they w do for a living.  Maybe they are the key to this, just allowing them to give me this.

If they wanna keep me around, why should I die.  If they want me to be young, why the f not.  I honestly believe that is the power of the people around me.

Through not judging them, I get to allow them to give me the most amazing like neat stuff.

To People

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