Hey

I soiled my knickers like a baby.

I w out today, and I started feeling unwell.  I sat down in Boots for half an hour and then came home.  I still feel unwell; gonna ring 111 in a bit.  I had my yearly mental health check.

I think it w the plums I bought yesterday in Rivergate.  They seemed a little sqooshy.

Idk about croquet, gonna see how I feel.

I’ve seen a new direction to go in w the business.  I’ve seen how to communicate w my customers.  I feel Ima get a better landing page out of it.  It’s been rly important that Ik who I’m speaking to.

I may adjust my landing page, over the weekend, and my ad.  I’ll have to, later on, at some point, get tracking on my page.  That should lower the cost of my ad.

Then I’ll be able to run a campaign.  The good thing is is that bc Ik the age of the people who click my ad, Ik the age of the people on my landing page.  I won’t k anything, until I run it.

I feel like Ima die.  I feel like that sometimes tho, so Idk.  There’s all this shame, like do I deserve to live.

I want to run the business, before I get the call from my agency; so that, Ima tell him that the business is making money.  He might then feel or see, that, as a qualification and then be validated in getting me something that aligns w that.

Ima always work bc work, in and of itself, is w I need.  I just need a new tribe to fw.  I need to find my people.  At the same time, I’m sad, bc, I’ll have to drop at least one of my groups.  I don’t want to lose anyone.  I w be gaining something to do instead tho.

My dream is to keep it part time, go loads of clubs, meet some new people, and have tons of money.  Sounds pretty dope, right.

I’m thinking I wanna G Wagon.  Idk what car to get.  Maybe a Ford Puma, w a high pressure valve twin turbo.

I watched Psych, and he had his car done up to the nines, and it’s like this little diddy thing.  I kinda wanna get that done.

The thing that always amazes me, is that a two stroke has like half the bore chiselled out for the exhaust valve, and still has twice the power.  It seems like there is a lot of loss around four stroke blocks.

I feel that it w be, to, put some kind of material on the valve.  Silicon takes heat, tho is too soft.  Maybe some hard silicon.  Alumino Silicate is quite soft.  I feel that a ton of gas must be slipping out the valves, w else c it be.

What if the top of the bore opened like on piston rings revealing like the kinda valves that you get in a two stroke.  So you just have ports all around the compression space of the bore, and have a cover that goes over and slips up and down on rings.

The blinking thing is all going up and down w the valves, why not have a sleeve going up and down, don’t make no odds.

Just solved the four stroke motor.

I feel that the problem w Formula 1, is that is always improves on w is already existing.  It doesn’t rly innovate.  Come on lads.

I gotta make a go of this life.  Gotta make things work.  Just takin it one day at a time.  Just incremental changes.  As they say, Rome wasn’t built in a day.  I am where I am rn, and that’s fine.

I don’t essentially need anything different.  I just need to heal, my life, as well as my mental health. It needs to keep up.

To Healing And Innovation

K