Hey

I had bowling today.  It’s nice to be around people and feel empathy.  It’s kinda learn empathy actually.  The way that people talk, and I’m feeling things as they say it

I feel I come from a super antisocial environment, all my life.  I suppose it’s learning secure attachment, Idk how to describe it.  It’s like I’m learning how to feel things.  I suppose it’s removing the callous.

Tbh it’s not a callous, it’s feelings that I never had.  I w just never around people who had empathy.

I don’t agree w everything that I hear, and that’s a struggle too.  I feel something is w w me, when I don’t feel the same way they do; tho I am my own person and resonate w w I feel.

I’m trying to not judge, it’s a never ending task.  There’s always this programming to criticise everything that a person says or does.  This w make me have anxiety attacks, bc people w be feeling things and I w just be criticising everything in my own mind.

It w feel like I w against them.  It w feel like they w never like me.  Tbh, I felt like they hated me.  Every time I disagreed w w they were saying, or invalidated it w|i my own mind, I w have an anxiety attack.  I felt like something w very w w me, and I felt so much shame for that.

Ik that I am no different to them.  Ik that we all have anxiety, and Ik that I have just as much empathy as they do.

One thing I w like to speak out on is a form of abuse against children.  I feel that parents try to force as much knowledge into them as possible, always cramming it in.

They dk how I child feels when this is going on, and I feel this is why they misbehave.  I feel that they just are so much in pain, bc they just want to be left alone.

I feel it’s a nosh.  The child misbehaves bc of this cramming and the cramming is done bc of the attitude problem of the child.  The cycle continues and gets worse and worse, the child suffering more and more.

Then they are labelled as a bad child, and the gaslighting is complete.  It must be horrid.

It has got to the point where the child no longer wants to listen to anything the parent has to say, they just want to keep all this information out.

In Other News

I tried to ad the Google Tag, w|o talking to technical support.  It wasn’t possible.  I w have to make an appointment.  This w not happen today, or tomorrow.

The landing page is looking super.  It rly comes across well.  I feel that it w increase conversions on people just going to the website.

I remembered the commandment, to sit in the lowest seat in the house, when going to a banquet, then being asked up to the seat of honour.

Selling is like this.  It’s either push push push and force sales, or don’t sell at all, and people w buy, there’s no in between.  I have chosen the latter.

I feel if there is no hint of selling whatsoever, then that is a very strong builder of trust, and trust is w makes people buy.  They don’t get the feeling that I just want something from them and that that page is for me.

You see, I am saying things on the page about the product, very powerful things that w make anyone buy, bc they’re such good selling points.  W trust the person feels that these things have credibility.  That is instant sales, I feel.

Any amount or even hint that I am doing this for me, and they w not believe the things that I have said, therefore they have no reason to buy, and won’t.

I thought about having a different link for each selling point, as they lead to different areas of the website.  It’s probably right for me to not rush this, as I need to be in the zone so Ima feel whether Ima do that or not.  A couple of the links lead to product genres.

I need to take time and look at the site and see if this is relevant for all three.

I’d rather make money from my site, than need to work.  Work w probably happen first.

There’s this fear that the toxicity of work w damage my mindset and ability to function and that I won’t be able to be in the flow state all the time for running the business, that it w seriously damage it.

To The Freedom To Not Be Forced To Learn Things

K