Hey

I just got caught in a baddie.  This one w about people who don’t f, don’t deserve to live.  That’s rly it in short.

So it started w me saying to Siri, how do I unblock my contacts.  I feel that the guy heard this, bc he said you will, I feel meaning that Ima f one of the people I’ve blocked.

Then it felt delusional, like he w helping me into some kind of magical reality.

Then he said something like, no he hasn’t, and that’s when it got dark.  I felt like his body language w saying he w taking me in an ambulance to hospital bc I had just ended my life, bc rejecting w he said.

It felt rly frightening, like some people who be abusive to get someone to have sex, if not all people who are f hard.

I feel he had ASBD.  I feel that realities this strong can only come from someone like this.  It w frightening bc everyone seemed to tag along w w he w feeling.  Very frightening it felt like people c be led so easily.

It felt like there’s this undercurrent of people who feel that they are magical beings bc they are having sex.

Now I’m scared to have sex bc I don’t want it to make me delusional, on top of not wanting it anyway.

It has come at a good time, bc I don’t want to end up like those people; and I just got flirted w and turned her down.  Idk how bad for me I feel sex c be.  Now I do.

I w gonna be consistent anyway.  I genuinely wasn’t interested.

I w so scared.  This has happened before, where it w so emotionally taxing that I felt like scared to be in any work environment, bc there w be this pressure to do something that I didn’t want to to, and that I felt w make me mad.

I feel this sums up abuse quite well.  I feel I w abused by my abuser, tho c never pin any abuse on her.  It’s bc of the subtlety of the abuse.  It’s just being drawn into a reality that is so strong that there is no chance to believe anything else and then I lose my self, and my own direction.

It taught me a lot.  It taught me w w be coming if I ever went back.  It w be attempted kinda, manipulation right out the get, I feel.

People w ASBD, their realities are just too strong, and other people follow, I feel.

It felt like it c be the motive for attacking someone in the mind of a very sick person.  It felt like that w not a huge leap.

He w blasting Sabrina carpenter at particular moments.  She is in that kinda reality where for reality to be w it need to be, one needs to be having sex, I feel, to get his point across.

It made me feel that people are rly quite evil, and that the just get too pushy w people over stuff bc of what people w ASBD are showing that they feel.  It makes me wonder who is pulling the strings in this reality.  They just seem so blind, I feel.

Like I say, it w quite scary.

Like the other baddie I w caught in it has rly shown me people I don’t want to mess w, and how to stay safe from them.

I feel this c be someone’s motive for taking advantage of someone sexually, that they feel that they are doing the right thing, and if that person got angry and got abusive at that person, then they w just commit to taking that advantage.

To Bizarre Sh’

K