Hey

I w walking past this n’a lady, and she said, freak out.  I felt like it meant for w snow person to freak out bc of being racist.  It w too much for me, and I got anxiety.

I feel like a 6y/o sometimes.  I just get scared about peoples’ intentions, and the intentions of the people around me and in the world I live in.  The world just seems like such a frightening place.

On the other hand, it feels like such an innocuous place.  Like, this is the first morning, when I have walked to Town, and I have felt no malice from the people cycling by me.  I feel like, why w I ever scared that something w going on there; and why did it stop.  I don’t feel like I’ve done anything different.

It w kinda disappointing to freak out, after that, tho I said to myself that it w happen and to not resist it.  Like it’s not that big of a deal.

I just toked up some CBD.  I’m definitely feeling it.

I felt scared of putting the above thing on my blog, bc I felt scared of backlash, tho I want to keep it honest.  I don’t want to be feeling angry bc I can’t put something on here.

I’ve had to some out early today, bc I have to go ASDA and Tesco in Town.  I’ll have to waste about twenty minutes, before I go in, and a little bit more.

I w pacing around, and this lady said to me, you can.  I felt like it meant that I c be mean to someone who w being like mean to me, bc of judging me based on whatever the f.

I’m still getting used to getting comments off people.  It hasn’t been that long since it started and it still feels weird.

I’m feeling pretty stoned.

I’ve thought how all drugs used to be legal.  There’s like Sherlock Homes, and w he’s doing.  I wonder w a world w be like, if people c do whatever they want, bc that’s how it used to be.  What w it like then.

I think of the epidemic of drugs, and I just feel horrified and just want it to stop.  There’s like a ten thousand homeless people in a camp in California, and Ik that it is all bc of drugs.  I’m scared that it w ruin our country.

Ik that in Norway, they help the homeless and it is the only country where homelessness is actually deal w.  These issues are to big for me, and I feel stressed out thinking about it.

There are lots of things to be scared of tho, like the tension between Putin and Trump.  I don’t like people fighting.  I want to see the world at peace.  Why w we need to kill each other, w for.  I don’t see any good coming of it.  Can’t we just be friends.

I don’t want to get into any kind of racism and w these countries may think of each other.  No doubt they feel hate or they wouldn’t want to harm each other.

In Other News

I want to order a pair of trainers.  I saw a pair that I kinda like and they are Gore Tex w is kinda w I’ve been looking for.  Perfect for the winter, w all the rain w w get.  It pretty much rains here all winter, and that’s a six month winter.  It gets pretty cold and cold feet is no bueno.

I get anxiety and Idk why.  Ik that all people get anxiety.

I hope that working w help me to feel less anxious.  I also have started to feel that I rly want to, that it’s something to get excited about.

I felt threatened by people showing that they wanna f me.  It kinda doesn’t bother me now, I’m kinda over it.  It has raised my self esteem a lot, I feel, to feel desired.  Idk.

To World Peace

K