Hey

My vape turns itself on; no bueno.

I think it’s bc any vibration disconnects the battery momentarily and when it comes back, it’s automatically on, dumb af.

I w on the bus, and it felt like I w behind some very evil people.  I looked at the n’a next to me, and he just looked like, w a pair of bigots.

I had a compliment today.  He said it w the late show.  Idk whether they w w me on that.

Just trying to not think, especially after feeling like two parents were saying evil that is so bad that I can’t write it here, about their trans daughter.  Just think the worst that they c hope for and you w be on the money.

That has happened before, two elderly people talking about how their son, who w gay, dies drowning on his way back to them.  I felt that they were exquisitely hateful, and wishing that on their son.  It w in pieces after listening to that.

I can’t go into it bc it w rly quite horrid, and I am not allowed to put stuff like that on here.  It’s rly good to read the terms and conditions, bc people get banned, they do.

I’ve left my sandwiches behind.

I rly feel like everyone’s evil rn.

The problem w that is, if I feel that everyone is evil, then that’s w I am.  It says so.  Whatever measure I use to measure someone, that w be measured to me.  It does say something like, anyone who does not hate their father mother sister and brother w not enter the kingdom.

I bought some leggings, so I have two pairs of shorts, and two pairs of leggings when I get them; for next year.

I needed a colour change.  I thought I w gonna go to green, bc I thought it w be nice, tho the green w such a dull nasty colour that I went w what I’ve got.  I buy all the same colour so that Ima pop them all in the wash together

It says playful pink.  Sounds pretty damn slutty to me, Idk.

The world is inside me, so I have to get better for the world to seem nicer.

The meds just make me feel like I’m drugged the f up, like I’m on LSD or something.  I wouldn’t be surprised if, I come off the meds, and I’m completely normal.  I think I’m just paranoid, c I’m buzzing so much.

I mustn’t judge anyone to be a perv, or that is w I am.  That thought bugs the hell out of me.

So, I’m doing rly well at healing.  Idk how the f I’m doing it.  It literally is J’s commandments.  I feel so f up, and it rly shocks me that I’m doing well at this, bc I still feel like a total psycho.

To be this bonkers and my choices to take me where I need to go is just marvellous.

I’m wearing my playful pink shorts rn.  I actually feel a lot safer now.  People ain’t even looking.  Is there something around having bare legs that makes me seem like the most wholesome person ever.

The thing is tho, feeling crazy is not a crime.  Like there is no offence under the law that says a person can be arrested for feeling like a nut case.  I feel that people are missing this point, when they just do whatever society says, attempting to look like driven snow.

Like who isn’t off their f tits w insanity, show me one person.  What is there to be afraid of.

To Feeling Nuts

K